posted on Jul, 7 2008 @ 12:59 AM
Its is interesting that others out there also think about death as often as I do. I dont think I fear death, if I did, I would be afraid of
everything. I think I merely contemplate what might happen when we die. I used to firmly believe that when we die, we just cease to exist, but the
thing is, when we die things like our hair and fingernails continue to grow, this means that a part of us continues to live as a body. I also
conceive the known universe to be nothing more or less than perhaps an atom. Look at how we as human portrays atoms and molecules. We present them
as spheres with red hot suns at the centres. Could it not be that in fact the earth is in fact a proton and the sun is an electron or vice versa I am
not a scientist, and that our universe and all its matter is simply one single molecule on another beings body, and that his so called universe is the
same and so on until you cant be bothered counting the stages? Why not? If you have seen the Dr. Suess cartoon, 'Horton Heard a Who' and you can
imagine that on each grain of dust exists an entire universe and on the grains of dust in that universe exists another grain of dust in which another
complete universe exists and so on again until boredom sets in, then when you die, you rot into a trillion molecules that cannot NOT exist they just
dont look like a person anymore, what used to be a fingernail is now 5 billion carbon and water and glucose molecules in which an infinitiy of new
universes with complex life exists. How can we consider that the small part of our existence cannot be the largest part of something elses existence?
What is to say some creature, animal or whatever is currently sitting thinking that when it dies it will be reduced to a trillion molecules when in
fact our entire universe of blackness and all its suns and planets and meteors comets etc is currently residing in a molecule on that creatures body,
and when it dies although it will have no further conscious knowledge, our world will still be exactly as it is without any change even though that
creature was put in a crematorium furnace on his planet and burnt to nothingness, the elements which made it up still exist and we are just one of
those elements of its body we carry on like nothing has ever happend to small to be effected by whats happend in its world. The thing that is
confusing is that of souls. Do they exist? Are thoughts and feelings just sensations of the mind or are they something bigger? This is harder for
me to fathom as the soul has no physical entity. The soul doesnt feel cold or hot or wet or dry, but it does feel upset and hurt, how can that be
explained? It is funny that we are not meant to understand, if we could understand it in totality, would it make any difference? Could we change it?
I dont believe in ghosts. I think that is just a fear, to be able to conjour up a figure to represent what is now missing in physical form is just
fear. I am absolutely crazy crazy in love with my girlfriend. If I died and my soul could actually see her still existing, I would stay by her side
until she died and then hopefully find I can connect with her soul and go on to the new whatever it is WITH her as she completes me on earth I see no
reason why she could not complete me in the 'after whatever'. But look as far as death is concerned, it is a very strange thing to ponder. To even
sit for a few moments and conjure what it would be like to NOT EXIST, is hard to imagine. Its hard because its damn well meant to be hard, our
conscience minds understand what we have come to know as existence. For it to not exist is not fathomable for us. So in summary I think death would
feel like going for an operation, you would be knocked out by the anaesthesist, you would see the room get darker and darker and rather than dream or
wake up after the op. you would just remain in that state of nothinness for all eternity. It hurts to live, not to die.