posted on Jan, 25 2007 @ 11:33 PM
My first post here - alien pics lead me here then I found this forum so joined up.
This could get really, really long so I'm making a note now not to let that happen.
I'm in my mid-thirties, male and reside in the UK.
I have something, I don't know what it is, don't really have control of it, it makes friends of some but enemies of many more.
I am looking for others (an authority?) with experience in this specific thing and an explanation.
I'm not going in to detail this first post because it'll get long, I'm also not at all sure it belongs in this forum.......
Since I was a young child it appears I have had this 'ability'. It used to manifest as an internal 'glow' - a warmth centred on my chest cavity.
At this time it seems I randomly affected items - mostly electrical equipment - for the good. I did not know then what the warmth was, nor did I know
it was unusual. Because of this, and the randomness of effects I made no link.
Three years ago I was sitting with my wife and told her about it. She is open minded about spirit stuff - so figured it was not a marriage ender! I
told her (jokingly) I would see if I could move it to my hand, well I concentrated (wished?) it would do so. In fact, what happened was it did move -
to my right hand. I had them clasped - I don't know why it went right. It felt like a soft ball, nestled in my hand, reaching just a few mills under
the skin. I jumped up - said it worked and generally jumped around. She looked at me gone-out. So I asked her if you could see if she could feel it -
she felt left then right - at which she repulsed.
Anyhow, since then I have 'used' this in public (workplace) repairing electrical machinery (at least) simply by wiping my hand near or on the
affected part. I have also used it to select individual items from a selection of tens of thousands of identical (exterior) items. On most of these
occasions I have had an audience - the first time usually only a single individual but after the first occurance word spreads and I'm soon asked to
do other things (with an audience). It's not something I can call-up, its not there all the time. BUT, when it is there it works - 99% of the time -
you wouldn't believe some of the things I have fixed (leaky engine block anyone?)
People mostly react to the 'feel' in a negative way, almost everybody who has witnessed things happening are surprised initially, talkative - then
openly hostile. Apparently I'm in league with the devil - I've heard that a couple of times.
At my last job (I was buyer) I heard a weld stain remover had packed up so offered to take a look. I didn't make a song and dance about it, but
couldn't hide what I did. I asked how it worked and for a demo of the working one then the failed one, then ran my hand over the 'control box' -
thinking - basically 'work'. Asked him to test it and it worked. I was asked 'can you come and do your magic' 3 more times, on each occasion it
worked - for the last fix I also had the Owner in the audience. That was my last day there - for whatever reason they got rid of me.
Right now, I'm out of work, have grand dreams but need financing, all the while I have little to no interest in making a success of anything - even
life. Things are suffering - I'm not saying its connected - but its as though I 'see the light' and this isn't it.
That is it - am I alone - what is it?
Thanks for your time.