posted on Aug, 5 2005 @ 12:21 AM
This reminds me of the 'sackcloth and ashes' repentance that is in the Bible, or pilgrims who would abase themselves while travelling to holy sites
by doing things like go naked, crawl, or other uncomfortable activities designed to mortify the body.
I think it is good that you regret all your past sins. Certainly, we all have them. I think that one of the key things to obtaining absolution is
not only to be sorrowful for what you have done, but also to promise (and keep the promise) to improve, to try and never again commit whatever things
are grating on your conscience.
It also may not be possible to change all at once. I'm not sure exactly what you may have done (and I don't really care to know, nor is it my
business), but you may want to try working on one thing at a time, concentratting with whatever the most serious sin is, then once that is mastered,
move on to the next serious one, and so on, until you have just the little things to work on, then do those after the big ones are out of the way.
As a personal example, a few years back, I started using a lot of profanity, and I realized that this is not a good thing to be doing. So I made a
conscious effort to quit using those words. I haven't beat it totally, but I'm down to where pretty much the only time I swear is at my computer
when it does something really annoying.
Just promise me you won't do anything harmful to yourself you might later regret while doing this penitence. I wouldn't recommend kneeling on salt,
but at least that won't inflict anything beyond a strong discomfort. I don't want to give you any ideas, so I won't describe any, just remember
that the goal of this penitence is to become a better person, wholer and cleaner and hopefully a little bit smarter, too.