People seem eager for Christ' return; A personal anecdote.

The following is a personal anecdote.


I was admitted into a psych ward of my own free will, for reasons I won't get into.


I was deeply troubled and needed help; my mind wasn't quite right and I was fully aware.


They moved me from place to place a few times, and each time something strange happened.


I assume this sort of thing happens somewhat frequently in psych wards, but it stood out to me as odd.



At one place, some lady was hysterical, screaming in agony.
It took several staff members to restrain her.

But when she saw me, she froze in place, then dropped to her knees.
With tears streaming down her face, she called out to me saying "Jesus!?"

I dropped to one knee approaching her gently and said "No, I'm not Him."

I felt sad for her, I could really see in her eyes she honestly thought I was Jesus (dunno why, I look nothing like his depictions).


At another place, another woman seemed just "not all there," as in either high on hallucinogens or just in a daydream-like state.

We didn't talk much. I saw bruises on her legs, I asked if they hurt, out of concern, she brushed it off like it was nothing.

Then out of nowhere, as I'm walking around she stands in front of me, gets on her knees, bows her head and raises her cupped hands.

In her hands was a silver cross, probably part of a necklace. Why did she offer it to me in like manner, or at all? No idea...


She didn't say a word.

Part of me wanted to drop to one knee and tell her I'm not who she thinks I am.

But something felt 'off' about her, and I decided not to engage her further.



At another place, another guy's eyes turned full black as he starts telling me about how "Seth" kills them, buries them, digs them up, revives them then repeats this ad infinitum.

I just let him talk...

I could tell a few of the people in the room were dealing with something very uncomfortable or scary.

I tried to help... somehow. I tried. I prayed for them, I extended my own energy over to them, I tried to lift them up and put a shield over them.

At some point, all seemed relatively peaceful, I felt exhausted, and I felt stupid for thinking I had anything to do with this calm.

Regardless if I had any real effect, the same guy came to me looking much better but a bit shaken.

He looks me in the eyes and says "When I get out I swear I'm going to eat healthy, and I'm going to pray, and I'll help people".

He starts tearing up a bit and his lip quivers.

I lazily waved my hand as to dismiss him; I was going through something at this point.


Part of the reason why I sought help was because I could feel -too much-.
I could feel everything and everyone and it was beautiful and terrifying.
At that particular moment I felt as though I had just finished a battle.



Anyway, I'm better now, but I won't soon forget those encounters.

What I got out of this is that people are eager for some kind of messianic return.

They'll probably fall for the first charlatan to claim to perform miracles and call him their lord.


That's my take on it anyway.

Beware the wolves in sheep's clothes.

Good words. S&F 4U.

People will often look elsewhere for all their answers, no surprise you received attention under those circumstances.

I often find the greatest help in lessons learned comes after a person is no longer there but my thougts are still with them, their words and their actions.

Glad you're better now.

Uncontrollable Empathy hurts. Controlled Empathy can be used for good, but a bad person will use it on the gullible people for evil.

Yes, beware the wolf in sheep's clothing.

So you felt a little crazy and sought help at a psych ward where you saw a few people acting crazy. Some of them seemed to believe you were the second coming, but you weren't crazy enough to believe that so you kinda let them rant. Sounds like you saw people crazier than you which led you to realize you weren't really that crazy. Now you feel a lot better. That's good (IMO.) But now, based on observing really very few people who were acting crazy in psych wards, you believe "people" (a rather generic term) are eager for the return of Christ.

Crazy people are, for sure. I believe that. They are eager for the return of Christ. Some of them are in psych wards. Most of them are not. They are allowed to roam freely. As long as they just chill out they and the rest of us will be fine. It's only when they start insisting the rest of us believe in their craziness that things get scary.

Always be careful not to be dragged into pride.
(not saying you are btw)
very good video

a reply to: SeaWorthyThough I am not Christian, I do see excessive pride to be a sneaking soul destroyer. There is another thing along these lines that may or may not be pride, I don't know.
We hear this now in commercial after commercial. The '' treat yourself'' kind of prompting. And with it also is the phrase '' because you deserve it. I hear this in personal conversations as well as if a person deserves this or that just for being alive.
I question this. Don't we need to accomplish something to deserve anything? Are we so prideful that we deserve anything just for being?

I may be way off on this but somehow this keeps drifting through my head.

a reply to: TerryMcGuire

The video is really interesting Christian or not especially as you say it is now pretty much everyone has a pedestal.
I think one of the hardest things in life would to actually be special, be a true Prophet, be truly a natural beauty a
natural genius how to be sure you don't start living off of the adoration?
I see it on many YouTube channels and like movie stars and singers. Instead of people saying wow, love his acting or interesting video they say (I love you) you are so wonderful! They mean this, they cry over these strangers who may be monsters for all they know!

While the persons makes money off a few minuets of video people praise them for being there for them and even sometimes add God into it as though that person is godly when they never said they even believe in a god!

It is both scary and sad!

a reply to: SeaWorthy Both my brother and I were blessed with a nice amount of of talent. No brag, just so. Along the way I chose a simpler path that the spotlight, my brother did not. He chose the spotlight and a job where any one he met would know what his job was . He landed the gig like that, should I tell you, you would know exactly that entertainment job he had.

Over the years I watched him change to the point that when ever he would visit, he would be on stage. He couldn't stop. He always had to be the center of attention because he thought it was his job..All the time.

When our mother passed, us sibs came together to close out the house and stuff and settle the estate. I will never forget this Sea, At one point he was talkng and talking and talking. He had taken to adding the word, '''and'' and ''but'' to every sentence so that no one else could even get a word in.

At one point he was going on and on and we had work to do and he was so busy talking that he was not able to focus on the work. I stood in front of him and put my hands on his chest and said, kid, calm down and focus, He looked back at me and frantically said,''I know I know, but I can't stop. His eyes were watering. I held his face in my hands and said, I know I know, we all know but we love you still. He looked at me and smiled, gave me a hug and we went on with our work.

There is a real poison in the spotlight, on the podium, behind the microphone.

originally posted by: TerryMcGuire
a reply to: SeaWorthyThough I am not Christian, I do see excessive pride to be a sneaking soul destroyer. There is another thing along these lines that may or may not be pride, I don't know.
We hear this now in commercial after commercial. The '' treat yourself'' kind of prompting. And with it also is the phrase '' because you deserve it. I hear this in personal conversations as well as if a person deserves this or that just for being alive.
I question this. Don't we need to accomplish something to deserve anything? Are we so prideful that we deserve anything just for being?

I may be way off on this but somehow this keeps drifting through my head.

u hear these 2 lines when u walk into the gta casino full of illuminati bull# that game ur spot on

Part of the reason why I sought help was because I could feel -too much-.
I could feel everything and everyone and it was beautiful and terrifying.
At that particular moment I felt as though I had just finished a battle.

Part of reason?

If not too personal have you been on any mind altering drugs?

From my experience you don't sound sick at all. The spiritualist hint that all of reality is consciousness. That we all exist in that consciousness segmented from the whole walled by our ego. I have pierced through the segmentation a few times and what I experienced is not all that indifferent from what you describe. The key is to accept it for what it is. Sweep the floor, live your life and just accept the reality, which is in effect, our true state of being. Worse of all don't gloat about it to people as that just empowers the ego which rebuilds the segmentation.

originally posted by: glend

Part of the reason why I sought help was because I could feel -too much-.
I could feel everything and everyone and it was beautiful and terrifying.
At that particular moment I felt as though I had just finished a battle.

Part of reason?

If not too personal have you been on any mind altering drugs?

From my experience you don't sound sick at all. The spiritualist hint that all of reality is consciousness. That we all exist in that consciousness segmented from the whole walled by our ego. I have pierced through the segmentation a few times and what I experienced is not all that indifferent from what you describe. The key is to accept it for what it is. Sweep the floor, live your life and just accept the reality, which is in effect, our true state of being. Worse of all don't gloat about it to people as that just empowers the ego which rebuilds the segmentation.

You made me think "my consciousness" is not limited to myself. Whenever I think of it as "my consciousness" it is my ego tripping. It gives me a feeling of freedom to know that consciousness is universal, in whoever we encounter. Some people worry though, afraid of what will happen to them. Life goes its way, gives and takes.

Our hearts.. Is it our understanding blocks the way to our consciousness.

I'm just talking, for some reason.

a reply to: Untun

No, there is no loss to self at all, its very expansive, self just becomes larger. Thoughts seem to be different colors to help pinpoint source. Its a bit weird at first but when the tap opens, a familiarity also arises, as if one's home again. Its been a while since I achieved that state so my memory may not serve me well.

I cannot say for certain what blocks. It might be different, for different people. But yes it may be our mental constructs that restrict spiritual growth.

originally posted by: glend
a reply to: Untun

No, there is no loss to self at all, its very expansive, self just becomes larger. Thoughts seem to be different colors to help pinpoint source. Its a bit weird at first but when the tap opens, a familiarity also arises, as if one's home again. Its been a while since I achieved that state so my memory may not serve me well.

I cannot say for certain what blocks. It might be different, for different people. But yes it may be our mental constructs that restrict spiritual growth.

Imagine mental constructs blocking spiritual growth originated from "bonds"/"connections" with other people. We need to become free.

a reply to: Untun

I smiled when you used the word "we" instead of "I" in "need to become free". I have good feelings about you. I practice among other things a Buddhist practice called Bodhicitta. The aim is to enter an enlightened state for the sole purpose of helping others escape the bonds of their chains. Not to enter that state for any egotistical reasons. Not to seek salvation for myself. I really don't care if my life expires after this life. I share this with you because I feel that's important.

originally posted by: glend
a reply to: Untun

I smiled when you used the word "we" instead of "I" in "need to become free". I have good feelings about you. I practice among other things a Buddhist practice called Bodhicitta. The aim is to enter an enlightened state for the sole purpose of helping others escape the bonds of their chains. Not to enter that state for any egotistical reasons. Not to seek salvation for myself. I really don't care if my life expires after this life. I share this with you because I feel that's important.

I believe the work we do for ourselves is an inspiration to the others involved, who we become free of though some may not find this inspiration useful but they sure will be influenced. It's all about being set apart. Therefrom we can appear at will with freedom as our best friend. In the end we end up a human like any other though with the light on our side.

a reply to: Untun

Yes agree very strongly with you, on that. I have used other more enlightened souls to try help inspire me.

a reply to: negedef

It's a touchy line between pride of an accomplishment and pride of being I think. That line is vague to me as I do know the pride of accomplishment and the admiration that can accompany it. In some manner it think it may have to do with the fulfillment OF the accomplishment on the one hand or seeking the admiration on the other. That may be rather vague to you because it is vague to me, I"m just trying to work it out in my head.

But I do know that that now popular slogan ''you deserve it '' is being codified into the lexicon of advertising and marketing and what I know about advertising and marketing is that they focus mainly upon activating the more unconscious aspects of our being, the automatic Pavlovian responses of ringing any bell and the mouth watering that follows it.

By the way, I do not like casinos. I will spend a short time in them while my wife takes her turn at a black jack table now and then, put my twenty in a machine and give it a spin, but that's it. My wildest memory of being in the local casino was walking in and finding a crowd. There were maybe twelve slots sitting in two rows of six, back to back. Around the little island of slots was one of those cordon ropes. At each machine was a person and walking around them was a guy with a microphone.

We'd walked in the door to see a ''slot machine'' championship with twelve people sitting in their chairs and basically poking one button over and over as fast as they could and that other guy announcing the action. A sad state of affairs. But sadder still was all the people standing around outside of the rope, being entertained.

a reply to: glend

Sound advice.

And no, I've never taken any mind-altering drugs, I chose to stay away from it.

But I've always been curious. I get a feeling it might be similar to what I went through (without going into details).


Well, I think I'm ready for whatever I see and/or experience as far as reality-warping experiences go.

In all honesty, the Devil himself could appear before me and I'd likely scoff at him nonchalantly.

I feel like I'm now capable of withstanding even hell itself if it were so to happen such.



So there's that.

a reply to: TerryMcGuire

I question this. Don't we need to accomplish something to deserve anything? Are we so prideful that we deserve anything just for being?

Just for being alive some rather well defined conditions have to be met for you to keep experiencing it. It's actually quite something.
the stance of saying I deserve noting because I didn't accomplish anything is quite derogatory towards the miracles you're experiencing.
What did you do to deserve them?
A negative outlook on things will lead to the conclusion that you deserve it, for being a sinner, a positive outlook will lead to the conclusion you deserve it just for being.

I'm so glad that I'm alive to share these thoughts with you and immensely appreciate you for being alive too, we deserve it all

For just being nice people would give the world.

a reply to: Terpene

I hope you found the ambiguity in my post Terp. You hit on the head, that other side of my still flipping coin. And I might add to the whole question of pride. Pride of being and or pride of doing. We likely can see a simpler relationship between reasonable pride in accomplishment and overly prideful self exultation through admiration from others, but I think it more difficult to think about rightful pride of existence and just leaving it at that. Should not, in your understanding, that pride in existence lead onward to , here I go again, accomplishment through action? I mean is just sitting around doing nothing but being happy to be alive enough?