posted on Jul, 1 2019 @ 04:11 AM
Hello my fellow ats members. I just feel like I have a little rant to get off my shoulders, I’ve been a long time reader in the background and a
member here and there in the past. I’ve been coming here almost everyday since 2006 and having been born in 88 that’s a significant portion of my
life I’ve realized. I remember the first time coming here brought from a alex Collier video explaining moon bases and alien contacts. Back then
although everything was new and unexplained it seemed like a much simpler and more rewarding time looking back at it.
I’m here now at work early in the morning like everyday, and I feel like the more I look at my life now and how boring it and everything seems to
me and how I’ve let myself slip into some slight sort of depression I wish I was back there in 2006 not knowing what was coming even tho there was
so much possible doom on the horizon then.
There was the ever arching 2012 date that even tho always seemed completely far away and fake, when the day came and went without much more than
another Friday I must admit I felt cheated. Cheated hard. Then since then all the other possible alternative conspiracy’s especially aliens and the
ufo question seemed to be thrown away for nothing but political insanity on my part. Looking at where my mind has been the past 2 years with the US
political stuff, the Balkanization of American people’s and intense censorship rampant online on my mind actually upsets me when I put it into
perspective for myself.
I was always the ufo dude, the guy who was saying the craziest conspiracies of ideas of reality, I was always starting those long hour long weird
debates you get with friends after a few joints or beers. But it seems like for me at least it’s almost all gone. I work too much, I don’t sleep
enough, I drink way too much, I don’t care enough I’ve given up any thought of changing my life and when I do it’s fleeting and never goes
anywhere. I dont know where to start or even why. There was always that feeling like there was wonder In The world before but now it seems like there
is nothing like that anymore, nothing weird anymore, no doom coming, no real ufos, no Bigfoot, no Loch Ness monster, giant squid is just another
squid, the moon? who really knows, I’ll never go there that’s a fact. no real change to look forward too unless it’s something I make happen. I
just wish it was 2006 again where even tho the world might end, there was a whole weird world then to discover and now it seems like it’s just all
one bad Wikipedia article away. Idk but I wish it was 2006 that’s it that’s my rant.