posted on Jan, 28 2017 @ 03:20 PM
i always felt (since about 2005 or so) that when i sleep, demons are sucking me dry of energy (im always dead tired, have been ever since, huge black
rings under eyes, suffer from periods of extreme panic attacks and anxiety attacks, clinical depression, have tried every SSRI and SNRI there is
basically, never have any energy, always feel like just laying down dont feel like doing anything)
and always felt this to be strongly tied to my nightmares and visions and thoughts about demons sucking me dry. demons or demon - but i feel its
ive never seen or felt them in a fully wakened state (luckily) nor have i had any psychotic breaks such as delusions, hallucinations, or delirium.
but ive just never felt that i have any energy and all of the above, in strong conection to something evil sucking me dry.
ive also read a few books by david icke and i adore the man albiet the quite out there stuff he writes.
but as a person he seems very genuine but ofc looks can be decieving as ive never met him. but he write that the reptilians feed of off fear. fear and
other low vibrations such as anxiety and terror.
i dont have much anxiety these days tho, it was worse 10 years ago. MUCH MUCH worse. it was so bad i had to pour alcohol into my soul just to bare not
actually ending it all.
but enough about that. nowadays im not afraid anymore, at least not to that extent. im still very fearful of the dark - at 34 yeras old - and could
NEVER stand being in a pitch black and silent environment.
its just not possible. just the THOUGHT of the electricity going out for example, gives me the crawls to the extreme.
but that goes back to when i was very young, 3 or soemthing. my sleep disorder and unexplained fears and night terrors began then, i had to sleep with
my mother for a very long time. i just could never bare being alone in the dark.
it was impossible. and still is. 30 years later. i always have to have the TV on, and lights on. i feel like a baby in that regard.
i probably need an excorsism lol.