posted on Dec, 10 2016 @ 12:15 AM
Many have traveled (I know I have). We've traveled the World. We've seen many things. Perhaps to each of us these things seem unique, like things
no one has ever seen before. I will admit, I think this sometimes.
There was a time when I was maybe somewhat insecure. I didn't believe. I wasn't sure. I doubted myself. Maybe, in some dark way I was even
afraid.
I always believed in taking the highest risk. I lived on the edge. I wanted to go higher, further, faster and just come back with mud on my face. I
wanted blood streaked across my face. I wasn't happy unless I was beaten, bruised and tired. I was always the one who walked into the proverbial
"fire".
It was almost as if I had something to prove...I don't know who I was trying to prove it to, but it was something.
I always wanted to go harder than anyone else.
But we get old (at least I do). That "take no prisoners" attitude is painful anymore.
That "anywhere, anytime" attitude is getting tamed. You know what, -30F is COLD now (never used to be). Getting knocked down by a steer hurts a
lot more than it used to.
They say "LIVE your life"...."NEVER be afraid"...it's a mantra, but you know...we get old.
We get old.
My mind is still there, but even though I command the respect and still show no fear, I feel not as capable. I feel more mortal now.
It's a skeery thought...this "mortality" thing.
Just sayin'.