a reply to: pl3bscheese
I don't have a strong brain course chooser guy, so sometimes my mouth is saying the middle and beginning and ending of 3 separate sentences because I
never gave one or another precedence. couldn't decide in time so im saying all of them to some degree or another.
it's more like an effect of not really having a train of thought.. I'll start playing a simulation but it will spark an idea and now thats going maybe
I rewind one and change it as I am trying to also mix those "movies" with my physics movie I play of the big bang to atoms to galaxies to planets to
bacteria to humans.. trying to put my knew thoughts in comparison with what I think is the "truth of reality"
The thought experiment movies and the songs I can set in motion that then think on their own, are related to how I know how other people feel. I can
take their "energy" and do really good impressions because I am them basically. but only if I'm in that zone... In tune..
And no my normal life is pretty normal these days.
It was a couple nights ago and this was caused by withdrawing from alcohol and not having good sleep, I thought I was dreaming and I was sort of but I
was really day dreaming, so my arm has a scar on it from an oven burn and im scratching that to keep the world spinning or something but it gets more
complex than that and I've never really explained it correctly but in dream mode almost anything can be analagous to anything else..
I wasn't born like this I used to think in words.
I don't have an inner voice anymore unless I just make it happen but it's a slower way to think so I only use it when I need to choose things that are
not tempting choices (getting up for work, cleaning the house..)
basically i use my subconscious more and my consciousness less than I used to. It's a lot smarter and faster but much stranger and almost impossible
It happened after I meditated too hard and I've never been the same sense.
it's actually the only way to remember dreams well or out of body experiences well.. To think the way we do.. when you come back into waking
consciousness your memory stream switches to awake human body mind.. and it stores your memory of your last day then remember sleeping and then what
you did when you got up but the dreaming part has at least 2 streams of memory.. the body in bed and the dude flying over the giant castle..
but if you think in multiple streams anyway you can store simultaneous memories better.
Sometimes that happens where I feel both my body laying in bed and my body walking to class in a school, and as my consciousness split in 3 pieces one
dreaming one laying in bed and one noticing that I had the other two at once and going "this is weird, but I like this, 'I'm' in 2 places at once?!
wait then who am I? I'm watching the other two!!"
at some point with the school dream my perception got too confused to maintain my body being horizontal laying in bed and standing up in a school so
in the school dream I started falling slowly back floating in the air until I was in my bodies position and Im going no no no I'm losing it!!
meanwhile the other me is listening to my brothers play nintendo games. and the me falling is like why am I getting paralyzed?
edit on 9-7-2016 by Reverbs because: (no reason given)