a reply to: k1mber7y
I'd love to know where you wrote it from. Do you know what I mean by that?
About 13 years worth of developmental trauma. Numerous instances of prolonged psychological attrition. Imagine not sleeping for 21 days straight; with
anxiety and paranoia building up, day by day.
LOL. Life is awesome. Viktor Frankl - the great Austrian psychologist and philosopher - says perhaps life and living could best be interpreted as
questions, as opposed to us the world questions.
We get so caught up in the latter without recognizing the wonder of responding
to the former.
I don't like to think that severe psychological trauma is a necessity to be a deep thinker, because I think empathy, imagination, and a true sense of
relatedness with others can accomplish something just like that. However, when you are subject to the type of mental suffering that I endured, your
choices are limited: either adapt or don't. But adapt to what?
. Given that I'm suffering, stricken with a continuous background of bodily
anxiety and a reflexive penchant for thinking the worst, evolution tends to bring the mind forward - if it is so fortuned by a sufficiently supportive
environment - into a different state of being.
Systems theory calls such transitions "phase shifts". I evidently have gone through such a phase shift in that my mind reflexively turns to a new
Imagine a loop; when my mind goes toward the "hated object", it necessarily is activated by it into a state of tension. This was my
reality for 13 years following the periods of trauma. Then, with continuous education in psychodynamic processes and their environmental correlates
(or induction factor), and applying these new ideas to my own introspective functioning, I began to grow. But grow towards what?
since human beings evolved out of what I call "micro-moments of recognition of an implicit self", I understand and recognize that positive affect - or
love - is the basis of the iterated evolution of greater levels of consciousness in Hominids. Positive affect - or reward feelings - seems also to be
the fundamental phenomenological correlate of neurogenesis/myelinogenesis/synaptogenesis in the brain. These processes represent new neuron growth,
new fatty insulation of axon fibres, and more points of junction between interacting cells (synapses). In short, whatever is happening "in between"
the organisms, and phenomenologically exerienced, somewhat spurs metabolic activity in the brain, leading to evolution of more processing power i.e
I'm on to a really, very interesting theory of the evolution of mankind which supposes some sort of primal "self" that is present in the earliest
self-perpetuating biological systems. Life implies purpose since 'knowing' where food is and developing the means to acquire it is downright magical
and plausibly impossible to explain without positing some centripetal organizing force. But how could such a centripetal force exist? Why should it
appear in physical reality, and be mediated by logical
chemical interactions? When biochemists study the functions of cells close up, they see
a factory of logical relations; albeit, enormously complex relations that we understand about 1% of. To complicate matters, the new field of quantum
biology strongly suggests that the most important molecular structure of the cell - the DNA ensconced within histone proteins (chromosomes) - cannot
replicate itself with the sort of fidelity (1 error per 1 billion replications) it does at the scale at which it operates i.e. the nanoscale. Erwin
Schroedinger was the first to point this out in his book "What is Life?".
So if quantum entanglement can be recruited to explain how it is DNA molecules replicate themselves with such high fidelity, then we are then forced
to wonder: what causes these quantum entanglements to occur? And what would this force look like? It's evidently not physical, so were left with some
sort of "formative" factor, perhaps something like Rupert Sheldrakes theory of formative causation. But out of what does this force appear?
Ultimately, your led to some sort of idea like the "atman": each life on earth is an embodiment of the wholeness and purposiveness of the atman, and
the atman 'pushes' itself through physiological processes on way to bringing about greater consciousness, greater complexity, and greater
manifestation of the paradox: the whole within the divided. Humans are the furthest extension of this reality.
One last note. Shame is the ultimate force behind our dog-chasing-its-own-tail like habit of aggressing against other people. Masculinistic,
chauvinistic, i.e. highly competitive cultures, foster defensiveness, fostering dissociativeness, because they offer no way for the mind to metabolize
experiences of vulnerability, weakness, shame, fallibility, fragility, and mortality. To pretend that we are gods has been the source of humankinds
hyper-defensive, over-determined effort to distance themselves from their vulnerability. And its incredibly ironic! As when we relate to our
weaknesses in this way, we subject other people to the same standards we apply to ourselves: this means what you can't tolerate affectively within
your consciousness (and which actually spurs a strong, assertive counter response) can not be tolerated in the behavior of others. If other people
manifest some "sub-symbolic" behavior that speaks to something you've implicitly come to defend against, your reaction to this
isometric to the one you've already established i.e. anger, irritation, i.e. a power-based, "your pathetic" attitude. The point is, human thought is
structured around self-other predictions that, when potentiated in a super-competitive society - yields paranoia, defensiveness, projection and all
sorts of other self-delusional efforts to distance oneself from an experience of weakness i.e. shame, in particular.