a reply to: Galadriel
At least now you know you are not and never will be alone, we are torn apart by this world, especially if it turn's out to be some kind of other
realm and our nature's are not compatible with it at this reality actually caused pain to us at many level's.
I spent ages trying to figure out what had happened but my experience was singular and about the time of the change for me being some time between
the late 1980's to about 1993 when I noticed the alteration.
I did not notice the sky, I live in england and even in my reality the sky was often rainy and overcast but when it was sunny it was beautiful, the
green of the grass was translucent as were the leave's and so much more verdant, even the night's did not seem so dark.
I thought maybe it is all the sulphur dioxide being pumped out.
I tried to rationalize how a reality could merge to create this darker world and so created scenarios on my mind based on physic's such as near
parallel reality's combining under extreme gravitation and a wavefront then spreading from a black hole, but I never understood.
I even wondered if it was the outcome of some kind of terrible spiritual cataclysm that we corporeal being's remained unaware of but I know that can
not be right.
I can track down the change in my life to one event, it was paranormal and I was as they ( entity's I could not see but felt and heard in a near
world that seemed to be outside my normal senses and I would say an underlying reality, it sounded like concrete tunnel's or bare room's somewhere
else and not my physical locality ) called it turned off.
One minute I was awake in pain the next I was completely in oblivion, no senses, no sight, no feeling, no hearing and only consciousness alone
suspended in some formless void that had no dimension or definable reality.
Something seemed to find me the minute I started to think out there as the shock of the sudden deprival of my body and even possibly my soul passed,
I would say that I was outside time and space but were I do not know, a second is a true eternity and time has no meaning there though consciousness
does exist in that formless state.
Suddenly I could see, it was like something trying to give me senses that I was not yet ready for, it felt as if I had been recovered by something
that only then realized I was missing and in front of me was a black or very dark grey sphere that seemed a very long way's away from me but also
very large indeed, it hung in a neutral colourless and dimensionless void that I would call grey but that is a post experience interpretation of an
experience that does not correlate to my physical senses.
A voice spoke around me and above behind me as if it was holding me and showing me, it was completely emotionless and monotone but perfect and clear
with the sound of a young man's voice of indeterminate age as it said simply "Main Aggressor" and as it said this I felt myself focused on the
sphere and I became aware that it was the sphere that was being called that or judged so, then around the sphere pyramidal shapes appeared as if
created from the nothingness each with an apex pointed at the sphere and each nearly as large as it was, they had a primary colour but it was not one
that exists within the world in which we live.
I so suddenly snapped into this body and this reality which was in that state of exhausted shock seemingly at the time close to identical to my one
and I did not know it was not my reality until I read the bible, other discrepency's were heighlighted over time, I remember thing's that did not
happen here and wonder what happened to the native version of me that was meant to be here and who he was compared to me, I was quite out of my mind
with the horror of the paranormal experience's I was and had undergone.
I then as I moved in my body just after snapping into it and being gifted once more with senses, that is this body, heard the same entity's in that
other realm or underlying reality laughing but it was a laughter of absolute terror or shock and not a jovial or happy laughter, they seemed to flee
from that place as if they could not wait to get away from me or rather what they had done and the trouble they must have been in for there crime.
I see mist people or entity's, seldom in human form but more cloud or smoke like and I have learned to ignore them, I also see shadow being's, it
is as though I am slightly out of phase with the normal perception of reality that is generic among the mass of people.
I have never taken drugs and never messed with the occult, some of the thing's I have experienced though since this event are truly horrific though
I had experiences even before it so maybe that slight disphasia made it easier for this dimension shift of my non corporeal essence between reality's
to occur and it did so against my will, unless this is some kind of hell.