posted on Jan, 30 2015 @ 01:37 PM
I’m so glad to have found this forum. Thanks for allowing me to introduce myself. I’m interested in most topics offered in this forum, with the
exception of politics and weaponry. Most of the other subjects fascinate me. What brought me to this site, however, was the forum on “Philosophy &
About 30 years ago, for several challenging, personal reasons, I began to question what exactly “God” was, (if indeed He/She/It even exists), and
how He related to my life. I took this inquiry up like an intellectual pursuit. But my quest was also one with a deep hunger or yearning.
Thus, I began reading books about God,… anything and everything I could get my hands on. I sort of believed in God, I just wasn't sure why.
Or, put another way, I needed to find out just exactly how God figured in my life. Where exactly was He, and how did one go about relating to
I had been raised in the Christian Science belief, with a great grandmother who was herself a Christian Science Practitioner. And yet, I did not
really understand the teachings of Mary Baker Eddy, its founder.
I started with the postulation that the man, Jesus, did perform the miracles as described in the New Testament, but I wanted to know HOW he did
those things. Seriously, from a molecular standpoint, exactly how is it possible to walk on water? To cure leprosy with the touch of one’s hand?
What happens to those atoms while the physical change is occurring? What is the source and nature of that energy, and how is it “controlled” or
“directed”? I wanted a material, physical understanding of what happened to matter when a healing takes place.
Why was this inquiry important to me? First, because Jesus taught that we could perform such miracles. He did not arrive on the scene and
announce to everyone, in effect, “Look at all these cool magic acts that I can do, and you can’t”. His message was exactly the opposite, and
yet, sadly, I know of no one who has performed such acts as raising the dead, or walking on water, since Jesus left this earth. Why? What is the
knowledge we have lost?
I began reading all the stuff I could my hands on, from authors like Depak Chopra, Thoreau, Descartes, Lao Tzu, Joseph Campbell, Edgar Caycee, M.
Scott Peck, Eckhart Tolle, Planck, Carl Jung, Thomas Moore and so many others. Then I started researching on the internet and studying older, more
difficult texts to find, like The Tibetan Book of the Dead, and St. John's "Lost Night of The Soul".
I also read some of the Koran, some of the Torah, The Upanishads and other religious texts including all of the Gnostic Gospels. One thing would lead
me to the next, and I was voracious. I studied about Buddhism, Taoism, Sufism, Jainism, Mormonism, Islam and the Hindu faith before I came back to the
Bible. And then I read the Bible from cover to cover.
I also researched Jesus’ disciples and their histories after the crucifixion, as well as many of the early Saints in the Christian church, like
Saint Francis of Assisi, John of The Cross, Joseph of Cupertino and Teresa of Avila. I read many of their writings. All of this took me years.
There is no way to understand matter and energy without delving into quantum physics at the same time, so my search took me into that subject as well.
I won’t bore you with a list of authors!
I also began learning how to meditate which took some practice. I now meditate every day. Practicing meditation for these past 20 years has brought
about an amazing expansion of consciousness. As a result, I’ve come to have personal experiences with Psi events that I’m interested in exploring
I apologize for going on so long. If you’re still awake (snore!), thanks for reading, and I look forward to cyber-meeting everyone here.