originally posted by: Kangaruex4Ewe
How many of us have ever wondered "what if" or had nightmares about being in a comatose state but fully awake inside and aware of everything and
everyone around you? You try to communicate in any possible way but you can not. You can't move, you can't open your eyes, and you can't speak out
loud either. The only thing you are left with is screaming inside your own head and making some sort of peace with having to endure the torture of
being trapped in your own body with no control over who touches you, what treatment you get, etc. Every second of every day the screams in your head
continue in hopes that one will finally break through to the surface.
Umm actually this kind of happened to me once and your description is very accurate. Luckily it was only for a matter of hours instead of years. Based
on the few hours of my experience, I'm pretty sure I'd of died of torment had this gone on for more than a few weeks. This guy will need some major
I had a tricky surgery involving the removal of tumors around some key areas (kidney, liver.) They were concerned about me moving around post-op and
thought that might cause some bleeding. So what they did was give me something to paralyze the body, along with a sedative so I'd sleep through the
forced paralysis. (Of course, they decided to do this during the surgery so I wasn't aware of the plan.)
Well, guess what went wrong? The sedative dose they gave me was too low and I was awake and aware right out of surgery in the post-op, but was totally
paralyzed head to toe. I couldn't move, I couldn't open my eyes, I couldn't feel my body at all. I tried desperately to call for help, to make any
sound or make any slight movement. I struggled and struggled. I could overhear everyone in the room talking. Something like nurses or doctor
explaining that something went wrong with the surgery...
So I'm lying here for what seems like forever, not able to move, not able to make a sound, nor see anything wondering just what the heck is going on.
It was torturous!
Every so often a nurse would come and open my eyelids and put some drops in them. I had a plan that if I could move my eyes, they'd see I was still
"alive." Yes, I thought maybe I was dead because the surgery went wrong, and that explained why I was trapped like this. They'd open my eyes, fill
with drops, but I failed to make any eye contact at all, eyes closed again. They did this a couple of times.
Finally, one of the nurses said, "Oh my god! He's awake!" They saw tears rolling down my face and finally someone came and knocked me out proper with
I must say, this was one of the most nightmarish experiences of my life. It was hours, but felt like an eternity in hell. Years? I can't imagine
anybody ever functioning in a sane way after something that traumatizing.
The part that irks me the most is I talked to the surgeon involved and explained to them I was awake while paralyzed like that, and how horrid it was.
So what did they do? They logged in the report that "the patient had no complaints or discomfort."
edit on 12-8-2014 by NarcolepticBuddha because: (no reason given)