posted on Mar, 26 2014 @ 12:36 PM
I had my first fully-lucid dreams last night. I realized that the concept of lucid dreaming is like migraines in the sense that most people
think they know what they are and even think they have them... until they really do and then realize that they've never really understood what
it was before. This is like that for me.
First let me describe experiences that I now know aren't related to lucid dreaming:
- I've had prophetic visions. So real and so detailed. These have followed a sequential order and is often narrated to me.
- I now know that these were not lucid dreams.
- I have a place I can visit while awake. It is a place with a name and unique features. This place is very realistic and I have most of my senses
when I go there.
- I now know that these travels are not lucid dreams.
- When in deep ritual for my craft works, I am visited, and am able to visit, beings from the other sides. I am shown things and told things that I
know are real.
- I now know this is not lucid dreaming.
"So, oh wise one, why do you think you finally did it?"
I outlined what I did above so you better understand how remarkable this was for me last night and that, if you relate to any of those things I
listed, you might be more willing to believe that those aren't what others call "lucid dreaming".
First, let me explain that I did not do this intentionally. In fact, I have enough going on in that area that I figured "lucid dreaming" couldn't
possibly all that different (it seems common enough on ATS) so I've only paid attention to it like I would any other cool subject that I'm not
totally focused on. So I don't spend hours on a mountain top trying to achieve this, in other words.
- First Dream -
I slept on the couch last night because our daughter wanted to have a sleep over in our room with mommy. I figured, "Cool, I'll just bachelor it up
in the living room." At some point, I was walking through some school. It was just as real as any day I've ever experienced. I first became
suspicious when I started wondering why I was there and that I thought I was supposed to be at work. When I realized I didn't have my day planner on
me (that's right, I carry one of those archaic things with actual paper in it), I started looking for clocks.
I read somewhere (probably on ATS) that a surefire way to know if you are dreaming is to read something. I found a row of computers and started
watching them as they were displaying an information read-out. I was only able to decipher some of it but the rest looked like that language used in
document templates as text filler. So then I started to really doubt reality. I ran to the stairs and decided to just bolt down them as fast as I
could. It felt like thick mud and I was unable to get to the bottom before slowing to a stop and waking up.
I shot up to a sitting position, panting and sweating. I looked around and figured I was awake. And I think I was. I laid back down after a while
and didn't realize I had fallen asleep again.
- Second Dream -
I heard a noise outside the window and I sat up. At this point, I didn't even realize I had fallen asleep so I suspected nothing but reality. I
reminded myself that my wife was home and upstairs with my daughter so I was free to wander outside and investigate. I did. It was nice and cool
outside, slight breeze. Good time for a little walk to think about my dream, which I was able to think about clearly. Again, at this point, this was
indistinguishable from reality.
I walked around a corner and there was a large grassy hill leading downward. This isn't really in my yard so I instantly started questioning my
state. I walked to the bottom, examining my breathing, hearing, clothing… everything. Nothing seemed strange aside from the hill being there. At
the bottom, I looked up and thought “Well racing down the stairs in the last dream made me wake up so I’m going to race up this hill to see if I
get all sluggish”. Then I said out loud “Worth a try” and my voice came out clear and without struggle.
I raced up the hill on all fours, trying to get as much sensation as possible. I dug my fingers into the grass and dirt beneath, intentionally making
a mess and trying to be as flailing as possible to see if I would be restricted somehow. I was not. I got to the top and looked back to realize that
my pajamas had came off on my way up. Then I “woke up”.
- Third Dream -
I woke up because my wife was making noise. She had come downstairs and was reading on the chair. It was still dark outside. When she saw me, she
said “Ooohhh… hey sexy… you look so good in that beanie, Cutie” and then came over to me. We started getting frisky and she got on top of me.
I’ll skip some of this since it’s a family site. While we were “spending time together” on the couch, I thought “Where is our daughter?
What if she comes downstairs?” and then I realized that I didn't have to take off my pants. I then connected it. I thought “I had my pants on
in reality but I lost them in my dream!” Then I woke up again.
- Subsequent Dreams -
I had a couple more after this that was a bit hard to remember but I do remember trying to get myself to try to fly but I was seriously afraid that
somebody might see me and that it might be real. I did some tests, some were, once again, not suitable for this site but, every time, the tests
seemed to indicate that everything was real until I woke up.
When I finally woke up for real this morning, my family was downstairs and it was light outside. The sunshine was what convinced me for some reason
and then I tried reading various things and all of that worked out just fine. It wasn't until I got online and started looking up possible
explanations that I was fully convinced I was awake.
So… adventurous ATS lucid dreamer folks, what do you think? Am I part of your club now or was this something entirely different? I can tell you
that something like this could really screw a person up if it became chronic.
I admit that I am posting this partly because I want a record of it but I also want some insight from those of you who do this frequently. While I'm
not entirely sure I want to do this again, I won't turn down any advice on how to, if you want to throw down some of your knowledge.