I have a story... Still untold by myself..
I have been through the most terrible years in my life since 2003...
In 2003 i lost a girl i really love/d alot. It was a short moment of joy.. Even my first moment of the feeling of someone really loved me..But that
ended cause i turned out to be an idiot.. For some million reasons i guess...
I lost the will to continue on the path i was on before the love connection ended.. I used to have job and was building up a carrer on my own..working
different places as a 3D artist.
The sickness of the loss of this lovely person i meet - made me one day just scan the internet - for what was going on on Mars... With the rovers and
stuff. Cause this planet - and my life just seemed to make no sense to me anymore...
Suddently i was in a situation where i found about 10 or 15 pictures with blue skies on Mars - And a theory that they painted the Mars skies red for
all the world to see - Their is no such thing as natural colors on Mars.
For a moment everything just made sense to me again - after the lost love connection.. I downloaded everything i could find on Mars and the blue
skies..It was such a beautiful and perfect vision to have inside my skull. I also found some pictures from Mars with some green olivien colored stuff
I tell you, in those days... I was still ignorant... Not fully convinced yet.. Until i found the Mars landing 1962 - And a picture from hubbel
telescope - showing of a Mars with green colors where there is this darker brown colors..(normally)
Well to say atleast... I kinda went into a stage of mind called total panic...It made me so happy...!!
Wich made me send all the information i gatered from the net to everyone i knew back then...
A said "look here - This is amazing!! - Mars has blue skies!!"
Well - it took about 3-4 month - then i lost every singel friend i ever had...
Lost my job, lost my future..
lost my mind.
within 2 years iv'e turned into a freak...A crackpot...As to before these years i was a popular personallity - for whom people loved to talk to...
I was a teacher on a school.. Taugt people how to find their way around in a 3D program... And i was good...
My telephone keept calling in those days... It felt so right to be alive back then..Everything made sense...I had friends and they had me..
Oh hell - Things just changed alot i tell you...
Suddently i became a truth seeker... Not just for fun - but for staying alive...I wanted more and more...
But it dosn't give me the kick's anymore like it used to do... I know i may sound like a drug addicted person, but it just dosn't make me happy
anymore to see UFO pictures - or ancient eguptian pyramides and the end of the world..
It just dosn't make me happy anymore.. cause it's such a lonely path to follow. And people can't talk to me anymore - Cause i have walked through
that door of reality -
My friends can't help me cause - they have no clue what im talking about when i talk about Disclosure project or the 9/11 stuff
. What ever
conspiracy out there.. Just killed my life perfectly profoundly..
I can't go into every detailed knowlegde i have about all the conspiracy i have read and heard and even seen with my own eyes...
I can just see the result of the human need to know everything...And alot more... That is lonlyness.. The result are lonely days.. breathing
a tasteless life with no clue to what is true or false anymore...
No friends - no partys anymore - I will not be invited to a party anymore - drink beers with the friends...
Cause im beound that - i have read to much knowlegde to just go watch a soccer match. My eyes dosn't look at the match anymore...I look at the skies
Iv'e seen orange light..Iv'e seen flash in the skies..and doomsday are comming our way...Even the buddist monks are telling us this stuff
comming..and world records in hurricans over there in United States Of America... Earthquakes on TV... And on and on it goes these years.
FEMA-camps - you name it - Hitler is alive and doing well..
What the heck
is going on?
Shall we all perrish - with out anyone knowing what the heck
is going on?
You see - im close leaning up on a mental stage called insanity... Am i beast or am i human...
i just found out how ignorant this planet are... During these 2 years... But i still love people even though they don't like that other reality...
And i sure understand - Cause i used to be ignorant myself once.. And it sure was a bliss in those days. I even liked G.W Bush back then..
In the days when i found disclosure project and pictures of Mars with blue skies... I also found Sonora sightings...
And i meet people who told me they had seen UFO's themselves... Offcourse they only told me when they had taken me to a remote room in a building
with no other people around... And they told me personal secrets.
What i have learned through all of this - is that the people who seek with heart and soul into all these matters - like i do... We have to accept to
be left outside the social accepted reality... As show in schoolbooks and on TV most of the time...CNN BBC whatever..
It's not a fun place to be in.
People turn your back... When they find out you are "one of them"...
Well - have anyone the same feelings during these days?
Am i going crazy for real?
Or is it just an total ignorant world we are living in.
What do you feel in these years - Is it no different to the past years.. 1999 - 1989...
Are this world really going into massive changes on all fronts or am i just going crazy - and i might as well just...
Mod Edit: Replaced a few words (in bold) with clean ones. The story and intent remains unchanged.
[edit on 28-10-2005 by ZeddicusZulZorander]
[edit on 28-10-2005 by Ram]