a reply to: TechniXcality
You can bitch all you want, everybody has its own problems and issues, and to each one of them those problems are bigger than the world.
I'm not sure if anything I can say will help you in anyway, but I got nothing to lose.
I'm around your age, 25, a while ago, I made a post, about quitting my job, I have a Bachelor in Marketing, and was working in a job I didn't like
at all. In that post, a couple of years ago, I posted how bad I felt, and that I wanted to start studying history at my local university, my true
passion. I received mixed replies, some told me I should do what I felt was right, and otehr told me to think things over and that everyone hated
jobs, and had to work for a living.
I made many mistakes in my life too. Thing is, everytime I get something wrong, I think to myself, well that's one thing to put on the list for
things that I shouldn't do anymore.
For example, I remember, when I was teenager, I always thought things would work out on their own, and I started a degree I hated, I lost the girl I
was dating at the time, and had a very bad time overall. So, that way I learnt that things weren't sorting out for themselves, and that I gotta make
my own choices. I now know that.
I used to be really lazy, at school, and college, I chose a degree that seem pretty easy, and then I graduated and couldn't find a decent job, let
alone a good paycheck. At the same time, people I knew who had always worked hard, were much better than me. And then I learnt, had work pays, at
least most of the times. Being lazy doesn't get you anywhere. I now know that too, so I try my hardest.
The same happened to me with girls, I suck at dating, but I'm much better than before, because I messed up many times, I didn't know how to talk to
girls(Not that now I know, but I have a slight idea), It was awful. A couple of months ago, a girl I have liked for a very long time, finally accepted
to date me, but somehow I blew it. I'm not gonna say, i don't feel bad whenever I think about it, but I say to myself, next time I won't be making
the same mistake (Alas I may mess up some other way lol).
Everytime I'm about to make a big choice, I think it over a lot, maybe for months, I imaging things turning out for the best, and for the worst. And
in the end, I'm at peace with myself, and know that I will be no matter what. Because you see, if things turn out for the worst, at least I'm
certain that I made the choice and I f****d up, and if not me, then who else has the right to mess my life? I give myself the chance of being wrong,
because in the end, I know it was me who made the choices, and took the risks. Nobody told me how to live my life, I made my own path, and walked it,
knowingly of the good and bad thing that could come out of it.
Finally, I have faith, I'm not a christian or follow any religion at all. But I have faith that things will turn out for the best. And I have never
told this openly to anybody else, but I do think and speak a lot to my guardian angel. I ask humbly, when I'm certain of what I want. I tell him I
know it might not be the best for me, but that that's what I want, and that if things don't turn out the way I planned, I'm certain in the end
he'll sort things out somehow.
The Universe answers, if you know how to ask.
Sorry, I know I wrote a lot, but I really hope my experience can help you somehow, sometimes reading what people tells you makes you feel you are not
alone out there, I sincerely hope you find your way. And sorry for the many grammar mistakes I have probably made, but I'm not a native speaker,
so... well, bear with me...