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Wether it be "shadow people", "demons", "UFO'S" or simply what is termed "ghosts", I have seen them to varying degrees throughout my life. Furthermore I have been followed by a negative entity for quite some time. Often times when I have had "fits" of anger, my eyes have quite literally turned black (witnessed by others and myself) and I am often noticeably followed by a shadowy entity which seems to thrive on that particular emotion. To add a bit more to this, the fits are often accompanied by strength that is much more than my own, and I often speak as if two voices are converging into one. Yes I am aware of how crazy this is.
Delving more into this, I have had two ex girlfriends become "possessed" and try to literally kill me. Both times their eyes turned black as mine do when I am angered. Over the years I have also known sickness that most people do not experience in their lifetime, but yet seem to always get over it without medical attention (I quite literally have foregone hospitalization to prove to myself how real the phenomenon is).
Messages from beyond:
At the height of my studies into the hermetic orders, and after performing certain rituals..I began receiving telepathic messages. Subsequently I wrote a book as I was instructed to do by those who were giving me instruction.
A personal theory:
It has often been a theory of mine that the world we each live in is like our own personal universe. The mind plays the part of "GOD" and controls the events that occur within our own universe. What the mind holds to be true subsequently becomes reality within the space it is allowed to thrive in. An example I often toy with is the one in which those who find out they are terminally ill often die sooner due to the mind giving up on the body.
Once the willingness to continue is no longer in the mind, the personal universe then comes crashing down, and the decline is often immediate. Whereas, those who believe they will get better often do to a certain degree. This can further be strengthened by prayer for instance which in reality is a form of the mind connecting to the personal universe allowing the intention to become something concrete physically.
A great teacher of mine once told me that in order to see the whole truth, one must be willing to see the argument from both sides and make a conclusion based on all the facts or opinions. As such, the above paragraph may invariably speak volumes if true to my own experiences. If the mind is the equivalent of "GOD" and the world is viewed through our own personal "universal view", the possibility is very likely that it truly may be "all in my head". Given the shared experiences with others, I can only say that perhaps my own universal view was strong enough to then influence those of others, again making something concrete out of "thin air".