I saw rama ,laksman,and sita in a dream

I never had this happen before,I am versed and knowledgable about meditation and mantra,studying it for years,but I still believe i am a beginner.I think this was a sign of sorts.Ive never had dream like this,usually i have violent nightmares.But i feel bad for myself for I got grabbed my passions and desires,masturbation,porn,longing for a woman etc....

Ive never had a girlfriend,dont drink or smoke.My cowokers call me wierd.I feel like i messed the blessing up.

You didn't mess anything up. Nothing divine condemns someone to being messed up. If that is the case, then they are in fact messed up. If they're messed up, then we of the lower existence plain are messed up.