It looks like you're using an Ad Blocker.
Please white-list or disable AboveTopSecret.com in your ad-blocking tool.
Thank you.
Some features of ATS will be disabled while you continue to use an ad-blocker.
Originally posted by Machine
I love Jesus Christ and worship him as God manifest in the flesh.
Jim
Anxietydisorder
What was the influence in your life that gave you this conviction???
Originally posted by Machine
I love Jesus Christ and worship him as God manifest in the flesh.
Jim
Originally posted by Esoteric Teacher
Originally posted by Machine
I love Jesus Christ and worship him as God manifest in the flesh.
Jim
I believe GOD is all knowing and all powerful, and that humans killed GOD 2,000 years ago.
Originally posted by Machine
Anxietydisorder
What was the influence in your life that gave you this conviction???
Okie dokey,
I grew up in a family that believed that Jesus Christ was our Lord and Saviour but we did not attend church often. I can count on one hand the number of times I went to church growing up but we did have a dusty old King James Bible in the house and I use to check it out from time to time. My family was pretty dysfunctional in several ways but underneath the dysfunction we had love for one another.
From as far back as I knew I was a professing Christian but my life showed little signs of my belief. It wasn’t until after my 23rd birthday that I came home from work one weekend and contemplated my existence.
Deep into the night I began to give an honest assessment of myself and came to the conclusion that I was bound for Hell. I based this conclusion on the words I read from a Holy Bible that clearly stated that the things I thought and did were sinful and would separate me from a Holy God. I tried to rationalize my wickedness away but could not do it. A terror filled me during this time that was beyond mortal understanding. As the preacher Jonathan Edwards put it, “I was a sinner in the hands of an angry God”.
I kept telling myself that I needed to turn from my many sins but couldn’t believe that I had the strength to do it. The more I thought about the depth of my sin the deeper my despair grew. At one point during the night I became suicidal and held my duty Glock 21 (I was a Deputy Sheriff at the time) in my hand and wanted to end my life. I knew I had no hope to ever be the man that God commanded me to be.
In the throws of despair and grief over having offended God something sparked in my soul. I looked upward and cried out for mercy. The tears flowed down my face in huge drops and my heart began to ache terribly. I felt the weight of my sin upon my body in an emotional and spiritual way and it brought me face down to the carpet. I begged God not to look at my sin and cried out, “I cannot keep your laws, I’m too weak and sinful to uphold your perfect holiness but you God could carry this burden for me and in turn I give my life to you whatever the cost.”
“I give my life to you whatever the cost.”
I no longer cared about prestige, or money or possessions or even having a roof over my head. I cried out for God to destroy anything in my life that offended him. I begged God to do this work for me because I knew that left to my own ways I would turn back to my sin like a dog to his vomit. I loved my sin. I needed my sin. How could I ever be made right before God?
Then it happened. Like thunder in the center of my soul I felt for the first time in my life that I was right before God. I kept crying out over and over again, “Jesus Christ my Lord and Saviour, destroy my sin, destroy the man I was, crush my will and make me your servant."
I stood up tears no longer able to flow and held my hands high praising and in worship. I cried out a scripture I remembered from revelations, “Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty, which was, and is, and is to come.” The rest of my early morning was spent worshiping and praising God with a joy in my heart that still brings tears to my face when I think upon it.
So that answers part of the first sentence of your question. I’ll answer the rest part by part over the next few days.
James
Anxietydisorder
What was the influence in your life that gave you this conviction???
Anxietydisorder
I would be interested in what benefits you feel you receive from your devotion and if you have had an answer to a prayer.
Originally posted by iori_komei
Well, I honestly dont really know, but I tend to believe that a soul of some sort exists........... theres more but it would take to long, and I dont think you all really want to read my theories, as they have to do with quantum physics.
I believe what I believe is what makes me what I am
I did not make it, no it is making me
It is the very truth of God and not the invention of any man