posted on Apr, 11 2005 @ 03:01 AM
This is just sort of a rant. I dated this girl for over a year and a half, she eventually broke up with me 5 days before Christmas, and had a new
boyfriend with in a week. They eventually broke up after like a month of dating, however, I finally felt a sense of relievement. We still kind of
talked, but ultimately I was happy. She, on the other hand, was extremely depressed, even while dating this other guy. Now, here we are, almost 5
months later, and she wants to hang out. Which would be fine with me if i believed for a second that she didn't still like me. She has one of those
"Xanga" sites, which is essentially just a blog. Recently she has been leaving poems in there talking about how much she misses me. Oh yeah, i told
her i needed to think about us hanging out because i need to make sure that she won't get all depressed and start crying while we hang out.
Basically, I want to make sure she is mentally stable enough for us to have an enduring friendship. I tell her, give me a week or so to think this
over, which consists of gaining the advice of my friends. She leaves me messages on my AIM about how she wants a decision now, or wants to know what I
am leaning towards. GOD IT IS SO ANNOYING! All I asked for was a week or 2, she has the exact amount of days it has been down. She told me today, it
has been 4 days. Listen, YOU DUMPED ME, GET OVER IT! I want to be your friend, very much so, but you make it so damn hard! I don't want a
relationship, not with you, not anymore! I want a friendship, hell I would love to have you as a very close friend until the end, but how can I? You
keep approaching me with this high school drama # that I don't want to deal with. Be my friend, not my enemy. Thank you ATS I needed that!