posted on May, 12 2016 @ 02:16 AM
a reply to:
Tiamat384
I read your writing and I particularly liked the first one. You mentioned that they are song lyrics, but they work great as prose, too. I saw your
comment at the bottom of one of the threads you linked, about feeling like nobody cares whether you write or not. I cringed when I read it, because I
can relate to that thought too well. I don't know who I'm speaking with, so I hope this doesn't come off as condescending or trite, but if writing is
that thing that nags at you to do, keep doing it, regardless of if you think anyone cares or not.
It's funny you ask what I plan to do when I'm finished recording. I worked under the assumption that I was going to try to build a career in music.
(It seems that in America, if you are even slightly accomplished at something, then you must necessarily try to make money by it. Perhaps that's not
true, but all the same it is a problem of mindset, for me at least.)
Well, after the trial-and-error of gigging, I slowly came to the realization that I don't really want a music career after all; I get anxious in
groups of people, and I don't have the social aptitude or patience required to establish and maintain professional contacts, plus I take it pretty
hard when I feel like my music has been rejected or ridiculed. The resulting depressions are not worth it to me: I didn't get into music so I could
hate myself.
So my goal now is to finish it for the sake of finishing what I started, so I could be proud of my follow-through. I will probably release it to my
family and friends, if only because I've been talking and talking about this project for years, and if I fail to deliver something, well...I wouldn't
think warm, fuzzy thoughts over myself if that happened.
And on that note, I have a lyric that I wanted to give a quick spit shine tonight, so I should probably sign off and get to work before it gets too
late. Thanks for the chat - I'll probably see you around the boards.