Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

I regret not becoming an actor. The opportunity to play a diverse range of characters whom differ from myself would have been fun. To fully immerse myself in the psyche of another intelligent being - one with a different set of motivations and ideals - would have been exciting. To research them and methodically emulate their mannerisms and behaviours would have been fantastic.

I wish I were talented enough to be a professional musician. The opportunity to write, record and play music would have felt fulfilling. To stand in front of thousands of people, to see them dance and hear them sing to your music would have been nothing short of exhilarating. There is a deep power to music that cannot be described in words; a potency so strong that it can transform emotions and alter mindsets.

Had only I become knowledgeable enough to be a teacher. The opportunity to experience the curiosity of young minds, to see them grow and become future fountains of knowledge. To help them develop their minds and improve their reading and comprehension skills. To see the smile on their faces when learning something they found fascinating would have been priceless.

If I were determined enough to be a doctor. The opportunity to identify and diagnose ailments could have helped hundreds of people, as well as improved the physical and mental health of those with chronic issues. I could have delved into the physical, physiological and psychological realms of human functioning.

I wish I were smart enough to be a scientist. The opportunity to research studies, formulate hypotheses and take part in large-scale experiments would have been rewarding. Being part of a team involved in breakthrough research could have helped change the lives' of millions.

As a walk down this dark, desolate street, a range of questions flood my mind.

What is it that I have failed to grasp but cannot let go of?
Why do I yearn to be everything I'm not?
What does internal satisfaction really feel like?

Until I find the answers to these questions, I will continue to stroll down this road.

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All glory is fleeting and transitory. Castles made of sand slip into the sea eventually.

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What is it that I have failed to grasp but cannot let go of?
Why do I yearn to be everything I'm not?
What does internal satisfaction really feel like?

Everyone on ATS (that isn't a bot) knows that this world is about to change dramatically. Hence, you can still become the 'teacher' that you desire. With that skill you can guide lost souls back to Jesus Christ during the coming chaos.

Also, if you believe in reincarnation then your next mortal path will be decided by your spirit before you are born.

Don't yearn for money. That is where many people fail. Money and material items are now worthless.

Internal satisfaction feels like 'completion'. Like a spiritual goal has been reached.

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Well Dark Ghost - I became a musician and I found out that once things became competitive, it got very stressful, and sometimes lost its fun. I got into business and found out that once things became competitive, they got stressful and there was a lot of treachery.

Then I found out that one of the greatest gifts we can have as humans is a stable job and a good imagination. With imagination, you can wonder, you can even do things like play video games or watch shows - or talk with friends about how things could be -

One of my favorite things is role-playing. With a good G.M., you can have a very realistic game that also includes very realistic character development and interactions - I have limited experience, but one time I was a poor janitor during an alien invasion, another time I was a Chinese martial arts specialist involved in Special Ops tasked with retrieving "mysterious / magical" artifacts.

And never be afraid to have hobbies or participate in things as an amateur, or even to get into something that you are not a professional at.

As a professional, there are often times when efficiency is valued over thoroughness. For example, in Magic: The Gathering, the Pro Players only get to use the top cards, while the Casual Players get to experience the full panorama of interactions.

This universe, even our country, is set up so that you are able to enter into a hobby (such as music or whatever you wish) at the level you want to / are able to perform at, and hopefully find peers at that level, and continue to move up from there.

Sometimes, I admit, it can be hard to find a good niche, very hard, maybe you need to create a group. Craigslist and Facebook are decent for that - meet somewhere in town once a week. Perform at coffee shops or small clubs with your music, or start out performing for friends.

If you want to act, volunteer at a Community Theater - it will be great fun! And from there, you might be able to make contacts to appear in advertisements or indie films.

As I mentioned once before, the real fun is in the Indie stuff - professional hobbies are more stressful than anything, in my experience.

As I said, once you have your house, your car, your internet, your food, your belongings - then add on things like friends, hobbies and a family -

There is nothing wrong with hobbies. In fact, a hobby is proven to improve your mental health and keep you mentally sharp and more youthful, and can even have a gigantic impact on the prevalence of Alzheimers and dementia.

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And you are not missing out. There is always a bigger fish. Playing the game where you are at is the same experience everyone else has. Deciding not to play the game, however, is the way to fail.

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Last of all - everyone is knowledgeable enough to be a teacher. Volunteer. I bet you both learn and teach every day in your day-to-day life

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Really? As long as you're willing to 'make' it happen, any of those dreams are possible. You write well. Capitalize on it!!

AthlonSavage
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All glory is fleeting and transitory. Castles made of sand slip into the sea eventually.

What Athalon Savage said. In my opinion (and experience) it is better to have a solid foundation and to imagine glory and even experience tastes of it through amateur hobbies than to experience glory and all of its instability.

Although if you want to, feel free - it just takes vision and hard work - simply make a goal, and then head towards it - if you need to, make miniature goals along the way. It isn't naive - it works ha.

The biggest problem for me is goals dealing with other people - like making a friend, or getting a girlfriend, since people aren't able to be set as goals - but improving aspects of yourself can make you more attractive

If you don't know how to do something, try it - it's fun. And when you fail, you aren't failing at all - you are learning.

And even as you are being taught, you are teaching the teacher. Because teaching someone is the best way to learn a subject. Every question you ask makes the teacher think, and process what he or she knows, to come up with an answer appropriate to your perspective or viewpoint.

Honey, if I can complete a doctoral degree then ANYONE can be a scientist. No great feat; one just has to be willing to work incredibly hard.

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Looks to me that you are a damn good writer. You could do that professionally.

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Those questions are not your own. They are the worlds, or in essence "societys" own failures and results. Never look around to see what you haven't accomplished! Get up off your bum and start making your own desires and wants come to fruition!

The hardest thing to let go of these days is the constant comparison to other people. Then the comparison slightly leans towards success between the group almost as if that is more important that being yourself. Who cares if you never became a successful doctor or a musician! You probably weren't meant to become those titles. Which is all they are...a title. You are still a human and it seems you are holding yourself back from only what you think are limits.

Dark Bake has a lot of good things to say, and excellent advice.

I say, with my own experiences as a multitude of different titles, each one of my own designation, to allow oneself to limit their mind to what they can't do, enables the defeatist inside to win. Do not compare yourself to anyone but you.

Get out there and try! Don't wait for things to happen...make them happen.

What I would like to know, if you are sharing, is how many time have you gone down this road? Is it more like self reflecting of times now forgotten or has it become as of late?

Just was wondering since a path is somewhat like a dream until you actually get on with you real path to follow. Since you can have any said path to follow, yet your true path leads you where you are needed the most.

In the end, its not what you can do. Its what you can do for others and yourself in the long run! People can get lost in the word Happyness, since it refers to themselves and not of the whole.

Happyness should mean knowing your own path. Many paths to follow indeed. Yet your path is different and yours alone. Some come and walk the path with you, yet knowing sometimes you will have to walk alone someday on that path.

What is it you actually want to change?

Thought I would toss that in the mix for you. Forgive Me!

Peace

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it is never too late to take up acting..

You won't get the starring role right off.. And unless your parent is an actor, forget Hollywood unless you brown nose the right people.

I just learned that almost EVERY child actor from my favorite 80's movie is the offspring of someone famous already.

From Angela Lansbury, to Sean Astin. all had rich connections and an actor parent

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I know what you mean man. I to have had many dreams which vanished once morning came.

I wanted to be a ninja once. But then I found out that killing people is frowned upon and the definitions of good guy, bad guy is all just a gray line, and even ninjas are not heroes.

Then I wanted to blow up the moon and a few other things. However I got stopped and found out that blowing up celestial objects is highly frowned upon in this sector. But I still think that if we all work together, end world hunger, spread love and peace worldwide, end a bunch of other productions going on and around this planet. I have even started doing that you know, you start with the basics small stuff, and it will spreed from there, by 2020 things should be picking up and all the idiots on this planet should get there # together. And then we can get on to more important stuff, like colonizing mars and space and a bunch of other things maybe even opening some conduits to other dimensions and spaces. And then after we do all that then finally we can get on to much bigger and better things like blowing up the moon, and a few other planets and "things"

I at one time wanted to be and do so many things literally thousands and thousands of them, all dead and gone now it freaking sucks, its depressing. I even wanted to shift out of this place and dimenshion only to have my plans thwarted once again by a really nasty evil and vile good friend of mine. Now I guess I will have to improvise, besides I have my ways to still accomplish that.

As for being an actor, doctor, musician, writer and all that junk. First they would have to pay me to watch or listen or do any of that #, who even wants to do that #. Its all just super sucky. Besides I can do better then all them on that with all hands tied behind my back and three eyes closed. But hey what else is there to do around here? Nothing that's what. And so...

I know what you mean man. This place is like one long suckfest of endless suckiness leading down a long and endlessly sucky road. It totally just sucks.