I am feeling I need to write something, simply because I am so in shock and numb about what just happened.
We own several cats for years ranging anywhere in numbers from 6 to at times 10.
One of our cats, Seabees, was always a bit sickly and scrawny in appearance and didn't really eat well, but we never considered it a serious
condition. It was just how he was.
Today, the cat started vomiting/choking badly in the same way as one of our other cats did a few months ago. (A few months ago, the other cat was also
in a terrible shape and started having spasms. We rushed (literally RUSHED) him to the emergency vet at 5am in the morning. He gave her an IV and a
shot and it recovered literally within the hour).
So today, one of our other cats started acting like this but not as bad like the one we saved with the vet....for example he was not lying on his side
breathing heavily and looking like he was about to die .....so we at first didn't think too much about it. This cat had some problems all the time
with sudden choking which we thought was possibly a problem with his teeth. So the occasional choking was something we were used to.
But today it was different. He within a few hours literally "wasted away" and looked terrible. He had that absent look in his eyes like he was just
extremely miserable...staring but not really making eye contact.
I WISHED I HAD LEARNED ABOUT CAT CRF (Cat Chronic Kidney Disease) earlier...there was a site where they described the exact same symptoms when a cat
is in what they call "meatloaf position" and has this absent stare. But I didn't know about this up until two hours ago...so we still didn't consider
it an emergency.
So he looked like he was simply resting/sleeping and very miserable....but what was actually what the site called "crashing" I think, a severe sign of
dehydration which would need immediate attention from the vet.
Later on he actually got up and to our surprise he actually drank some water. We KNEW that he needed to drink badly and that he was dehydrated. Then
he came back on the couch.
We were certain that he is getting better and assumed he possibly only ate an onion or something so his stomach was upset....pretty sure he will
recover, especially since we saw him drinking. And also thinking it's a good sign when they are resting/sleeping.
I went to bed....and my wife fell asleep on the couch. Cat seeming to rest/sleep and we didn't see a sense of emergency.
Wife wakes up at 2:00am rushing into the bedroom telling me Seabees (I still don't even know how his name was spelled, wife came up with the name) is
I though "ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!?!" since we were both confident it was just something minor and temporary.
Get up and he lies on his side, basically in his last breaths, without doubt dying.
Petted him, him with this terrible blank stare in his eyes and he literally died within a few minutes.
JUST PLAIN AWFUL ;(
I feel so terrible and above all NUMB..not being able to being really sad or to cry, still in shock.
This comes about one month after one of our other cats, my favorite cats of all of them who LOVED ME LIKE A GOD vanished without a trace (we suspect
another stray cat might have gotten him). We're not even completely over that loss yet ;(
Again I wished I had read about "Feline Chronic Kidney Disease" earlier since it describes all the symptoms and I am pretty sure that's what he
had....if I had known all this we wold have rushed him to the vet but we didn't know.
I still cannot believe he died just like that. One day everything's fine, you love them, you feed them, you pet them, you play with them..all
happiness ...the next day within hours something happens and he's gone, just a memory is left.
Sometimes I don't UNDERSTAND this universe, I simply don't.
Of course now I/we feel guilty not having gotten to the vet (it was also a money issue) but as said this time at first it didn't look like a real
emergency otherwise we would've gone without a question, regardless.
I just feel awful.
RIP Seabees I am so sorry ;(((
Thank you for reading my incoherent writings.
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