reply to post by SloAnPainful
I don't normally post on ATS anymore, but saw this, and figured I would comment. I was married for 13 years, got married at 18, was with the girl
since I was 15. and she left me at 31.
The first thing I experienced was denial. She isn't leaving, ok, she might leave but she is coming back. wth is she thinking kinda thing.
Next was anger, ok fine she wants to leave and date other people, fine, I am gonna date other people--- This is a bad advice to do, cause quit
honestly, I was too broken to be worth anything, to anyone, and I spent most of the time using the woman as therapist which really, kills the mood
.
After the anger came the heart wrenching pain of I lost her, I want her back, and I will do everything to do so. ---Doing everything and anything to
do so usually doesn't work, and to be honest this isn't the movies where you comes running back. In my experience, She claimed I was too closed off,
and never participated in the family anymore. well I opened myself up completely, and watched day after day after day after day as she beat me to hell
and back emotionally. I basically did this till the hurt of her leaving was replaced by annoyance, then anger, then finally rage.
Rage at her moving on, rage at having wasted 15 years of my life, rage at the new men in her life, rage at how she was treating me, rage at having to
argue with her at every little thing. till finally I said enough, and I swore I would never, ever trust her with my heart again, decided the best
thing for myself, my children and her was for her to just leave me the hell alone.
Loneliness- You wont stop feeling lonely for a while, that said though, stick with your family for a while, your hand for some gratification, and a
dog for companionship. If you get to lonely and start mixing the 3 up. seek counseling, as the dog will start looking at you weird, and the family
reunions get awkward.
I have been divorced for 4 years now. I will tell you, the pain in your chest, and ache in your heart does start to fade. The biggest mistake I made
though was replacing it with anger, rage, and emotional dependence. The best advice I can give anyone, is don't do what I did. Using anger or rage to
smother, and hide pain and suffering while it makes you stronger in the short term, is one hell of a burden to carry in the long term. Its ruff.
Lastly, some advice I can give, stay away from alcohol, its a downer, and will just make you feel like dog #. Alcohol boosts whatever mood your in. In
this case your down, so it will drag you way down. Don't start smoking to calm you down, or take drugs, addictions wind up staying with you longer
then the anger does.
Finally, someone mentioned working out. Doing this smartly actually helped me. my first work outs was pounding my fists into trees in the back yard
crying out in frustration, while it did alleviating the pain, having my fist sore and bruised for the next 2 weeks made it hard to work. I recommend a
going to a gym, and hitting a punching bag with gloves.
One other thing, talk to a therapist, just as you morn someone that dies, men typically morn the women that leave in the same way. a therapist told me
that. You are going to experience the same cycle of pain that people that are morning someone they loved with.
Some days will be easy, others will be hard. Some will be so hard you cant take it a day at a time. Don't, take it an hour at a time, and if you cant
a minute. Its ok to cry dude. that just shows you loved her, and she hurt you, but don't be a doormat. I read tons of articles about relationships,
when my first wife left.
One mentioned this. A woman doesn't just leave. She will sit in a relationship for a long, long time getting more and more unhappy, till eventually
she says enough. What I am trying to say is, don't go hog wild trying to win her back. She made her decision and unfortunately you both have to live
with it now. Chances are extremely good, that no matter what you do, you will not get her back, she will not want to be with you, and after trying so
hard it will only hurt more, much much more. Let her go, leave her alone, and concentrate on you. who are you? what are you? what makes you happy?
focus on figuring out who you are. The relationship failed because 2 people failed. so heres the kicker, eventually you will be over this, and you
will want to start a relationship with a woman who hasn't broken your trust, hasn't hurt you, and is actually interested in you for you.
What is the person that she is going to be interested in? someone hurt by a previous 8 year relationship, that cant move on- I.E. me---- or someone
that learned what his mistakes were, that values and cherishes her for her, and tries very hard every day to be the best man that he can be.
Good luck bro, I know your hurting, its ok to hurt. its ok to cry, and its ok to talk to people. Don't know your religious preference but Priests and
pastors are excellent free therapists. They can help you with this struggle, and remember, sometimes you got to just live 1 minute at a time. I
promise you though, it will get easier, you will get through this, and you will be better for it.