I am lost.
I would like to share with you all some pretty special and incredible moments of my life that have lead me to a new world that lies before me.
However, as I open my mind more, I'm becoming increasingly confused and well, lost..
I welcome all your thoughts & Opinions and challenge you to draw you own conclusions and offer your suggestions as to what some of my experiences
could be relating to! And maybe some clarity and directions that would lead me though this period of confusion!..
You don't know me and I don't know you. However you do know I'm a human just like you. I sleep most nights, work during the day. I eat the
same/similar foods you do. Wash, walk, drive, spend time with friends and family, play video games, watch movies, TV, pleasure, pain, live and dream..
Just like you. So we're not really that different. In fact we probably share many of the same experiences and beliefs but through different minds, in
different places, with different names.. and so on.
My first experience I have posted here on ATS before but would like to re-visit it briefly in the hope of a wider variety of views and opinions..
Aged 4/5, living in Australia at the base of Mount Riddell, Victoria. (1995/1996)
For around 6 months to a year (can't remember the exact time frame as it was a long time ago) I used to have a terrifying dream accompanied by
sleepwalking. This dream consisted of me standing in total infinite darkness. Imagine standing and walking in space, with normal earth gravity and no
stars.. that's pretty much the gist of it. Looking down I could see my hands and feet as clearly as if I were stood in daylight.
Off in the distance I see a field of grass which I walk over to. There is a pebble path winding through the middle to the other side. Between each
blade of grass and each pebble there is no dirt, no ground, just the infinite blackness. Children are playing in the fields, picking some kind of
flowers from the field (I did say they were Dandelions but the more I think about it I'm sure they were something else)
I walk along the path, seemingly invisible to the other children who keep their distance, joyfully playing in the field either side of me. As I
approach the middle of the field, I feel this presence, an energy.. All I now know is it's my turn, I'm next to go in, I was now full of sheer terror.
There was nothing there, I never saw what it was but it was powering up, almost like some old machine starting it's engines (No sound at all by the
way) This invisible force in front of me was pulling me in.. I don't want to, but have no resistance, completely overpowered! Right before I'm pulled
in is when I begin waking..
As I woke I would be disorientated, it would take a good 5 minutes or so to fully waken. I'd still be in the dream but seeing my Mum shaking me by the
shoulders repeating my name and telling me to wake up! This is where it gets a little weirder.. As I was in this dream I would be walking around our
home with my eyes closed, very pale and shaky. Sometimes running around in circles (I obviously don't remember these bits as I was in the dream) Now
the strange bit, as I was walking around I would mumble "I'm in the wrong dimension, this is the wrong dimension"... Now, I was 4/5 while this was
happening. I didn't know what a dimension was to even come out with a statement like that. Understandably I am aware that we can pick things up
subliminally, without knowing, but I never really watched TV/Movies then I used to play outside with friends (Before all this amazing tech we have
today! Ha!).. Maybe possibly heard a friend say it but I don't know, it's still a little weird..
If you have any thoughts on this one please share, all views would be greatly appreciated!
A little more about me.. I'm now living in the UK aged 22. I practice meditation, Astral Projection and Lucid Dreaming.
A MIRACLE OR SOMETHING SCIENTIFIC:
6 months ago my Grandmother (81) fell and hit her head in the floor. She suffered a Subdural Hematoma. Her whole left side of the brain was covered by
the bleed. It pushed her brain over and she was in a coma occasionally flickering into consciousness, with the risk of her brain coning.. She was
given 2 days to live and put in a private side room of a Medical wing. Neurosurgeons wouldn't touch her and said there was nothing to be done, this
was the end..
It was only a small side room. Myself, Mum, Brother, Sister and Cousin were all there from the moment she arrived in hospital. I sat looking at her,
no emotions at all. Everyone else was sitting together around the bed crying, the room felt like it was getting bigger and bigger. I love my gran very
much but her mentality/health has depleted vastly in recent years (Comes with age), so her not surviving this was something I knew no amount of tears
or praying was going to stop. I'm not afraid of death, she believes in a god and is also not afraid. My job knowing this, was to be strong for my
family and Gran, this room needed to be filled with positive energy (Not joyous but positive/peaceful vibes)! My concern was that her suffering would
pass swiftly, though healing or death. (This is not intended to sound as harsh as it may come across)..
The Nurses on duty put us in this private room so we could all be there when she passed. As my siblings grew tired and went home for sleep I sat there
with my Mum. Staring at this invincible woman, who had survived 3 Major ops over the last 2 years (Broken femur & hip joint 1 year ago / Kidney
removal 18 months ago) I took her hand and held it tightly, now fighting a brief spell of tears.. I can't explain this now but I knew that that would
lead to negativity. So I held them off and began thinking strong positive thoughts. I told her this wasn't the end. She was going to wake up and
recover from this. Not for My own or familys will to keep her from passing on, but because I just knew it somehow. After around 10 minutes of focusing
this positive energy to my hands and through my Gran, she mumble something. I looked at my mum who was already getting up to call a Nurse over. She
then squeezed my hand and opened her eyes slightly, and said, 'Ohhh I have such a headache', smiled and chuckled to herself.. I just had the biggest
smile on my face. It was also my birthday, so I received the greatest gift ever, life.
When the Nurses and Doctors arrived, you should have seen their faces! They couldn't believe it, neither could my family for that matter.. She was put
in that room to die. But she didn't, she woke up..
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