I kinda decided to give up on life today....

I think life is suppose to be about doing things we love. Pressure comes when we think we are expected to be doing something else. The mistake is when we try to judge ourselves from others' perspectives of us (or what we believe them to be). What others think of us shouldn't matter; what matters is that it only reminds us of how judgmental we might have been of others and how we ought to remedy that part of ourselves.

From what I read, you are not "quitting", but merely moving on, buddy. It's not like you will be able to just vegetate and do/think absolutely nothing, although there is some wisdom in that too if it's even possible. Cliched as it may sound, it is the journey that counts, not the destination. Suicide isn't an option when you think of all the beauty in the lessons and experiences life offers.

I just remembered the following video... hope it helps make you decide what to do next (although not deciding is also a decision). Btw, the guy who proposes to go south panning for gold sounds like he gets it. Imagine how fun would that be...the adventures (the journey), even if you don't find any gold (the destination). Wishing you and everyone here well...

reply to post by GogoVicMorrow


When your 27, your job is supposed to suck.

I think a lot of the problems with folks is that we expect too much from life. Exepct nothing that you don't fight for your life to get. That way, you spend every day fighting for your life and aren't disappointed....because you expect to.

ZeussusZ
reply to post by spartacus699

 

I hear you. I gave up about three years ago.Quit my job, stopped paying my mortage and bills. The bank and co come looking for their money, so I just told them they could have the house back. They didn't like that to much, but what could they do., I just moved out and stopped replying to them. Think they sold it, I don't know, don't care. Do odd jobs for people when I need some cash and thats about it. I have nothing to worry about now and feel so at peace. Things seem to work out now, where as before the harder I tried the worse it got.
Anyway I know where you are at. My advice, just go with the flow.

Must be nice , being single and living off of odd jobs and a can of beans a day, some people have families to support.

Visitor2012

ZeussusZ
reply to post by spartacus699

 

I hear you. I gave up about three years ago.Quit my job, stopped paying my mortage and bills. The bank and co come looking for their money, so I just told them they could have the house back. They didn't like that to much, but what could they do., I just moved out and stopped replying to them. Think they sold it, I don't know, don't care. Do odd jobs for people when I need some cash and thats about it. I have nothing to worry about now and feel so at peace. Things seem to work out now, where as before the harder I tried the worse it got.
Anyway I know where you are at. My advice, just go with the flow.

Must be nice , being single and living off of odd jobs and a can of beans a day, some people have families to support.

Everyone is responsible for their choices in life. Don't judge others because they didn't choose your life choices. At least YOU have a motivation factor and support system in life. He only has himself.

reply to post by spartacus699


on the 13th you were bitchin about having your landlord come into your bit of the house then your living in a family members basement boy do you get around spartacus and you carry a lot of baggage as well better see a doc this is one time nobody is jumping up and shouting im spartacus no he is

reply to post by Visitor2012


yep, I eat my beans and my rice, but I ain't got no love, ya feel me!

reply to post by geobro


No I'm serious! They're always coming into my space. So I started keeping the one outer door closed. That way it make them feel as if, if they open that door they're now in my space. So it has been working from what I can tell. They still come downstairs but at least not into my kitchen as much. But ya a lot of odd circumstances. You know if I didn't have my gf here in the city I'd most likely pack up my truck full of gear, head the coast, find an island somewhere and move in and just live out the rest of my life there. Maybe find a dog or something. Just build a little cabin, and then I'd just hunt, fish, trap, can, grow, forage, and beachcome in order to feed myself to a large degree. And that would give me something to do during the days. Plus I'd make the occasional journey into town for supplies. But I'd literally disappear. I'm so sick of well everything. It's like Alex Jones was just saying today, everything started to change in about the 60's. Now we're a full blown technocracy. And Canada is a socialist country, so was Nazi Germany. You have no idea what that's like unless you've lived her for a while. Anything can land you in hot water. I mean anything! It's nuts.

This is kinda weird.... well I figured out something today.... Just strange it popped into my mind.

Well actually its based on something I've read by several success motivation speakers. They said: "you need to come up with 5 reasons that will keep you strong when things get tough because they will get tough."

So I was relaxing and was like "Ya what are the 5 reasons", and I quickly came up with them. As times are pretty stressful these days.

So my reasons are:

1) I know God
2) I'm okay mentally and physically
3) I will always have at least my basic needs met
4) I have loving friends and family that care about me
5) I can still pursue my goals and dreams in life even if they don't happen as fast as I want

So when I factor in all these things, I realized that I'll be fine, no matter what happens from this point forward, if things get tough I'll try and remember my 5 reasons.

It's strange too, because I spent like an hour writing out this long document about all the crap that went down. I figured I want to have it all in writing for the record. But then I was thinking it over and I thought, "no I have to not focus on it anymore, I have to move on". So I deleted it. Regardless of what happened, even if I was wronged, I have to move on. And it wasn't 100% my fault. Not even close, but still it's useless to point any fingers. Just live and learn. And one thing I learned is these 5 reasons that I must press on, and or can use to do so if and when times get tough. I like 5 because I can fit them on Five fingers.

It's not gonna be easy but I think I can try and pull through. And if things get really tough, well then I'll harp to you guys ha ha. As I know y'all listen.

reply to post by spartacus699


Sure we are all glad that you've found your way again.

Best of luck.

reply to post by spartacus699


same, Sparta

in all sincerity - i think, He can give a soul only an assignment,
when that soul hasnt own goals no more

..please Sit this one out - and Wait
and be Very attentive

bless,