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ARGH...that is the word of today.
Lisa is doing ok. Just talking to her and I dont see that she is sick. Looking at her I dont either. Is that normal??? It makes it harder. Maybe I am in some denial phase of this grief journey. She acts fine. (pretends I am sure) She looks fine other than having no hair and being very swollen from her treatments. She sounds fine.
I just don't get it.
No, I am questioning that she is sick. I know she is. I know her body is full of cancer. But, I do not understand how she can look, sound, and act NORMAL and be dying.
It would be easier if she didn't, I mean maybe it would help prepare me for the day she dies. It is like a cruel joke. Like someone in heaven said " hmm lets give her cancer but have her look, sound and act fine" that should really shock her loved ones when she passes on.
It all makes no sense to me.
I am working 60 hours a week right now. I am so tired. I can't sleep when I finally go to bed then have to get up at 5 and put in 10-12 hr days. I am hanging on by a thread right now. The permanent room mate (what I now call my dearly betrothed) is the laziest human being on this planet. HE does nothing. So I have spent my entire day off (the only one this week) cleaning and scrubbing and doing laundry. Then when I start to do it he comes to do it instead. Seriously. Nothing makes me madder. If he was going to do it he would not have waited until I started doing it to do it. It really fries me. Then he wants a big reward or pat on the back for doing it. What is he? 5???
I am so frustrated.
Some days I want to run away.
Where is Kat?? I am really worried now.
I sent her a U2U and she has not read or responded.
I miss her.
Another friend of mine on here is missing..his name is Heff. He has been gone for over a month. They have people looking for him ...
How does one just disappear??
Good day ladies
I'm here for you both always
If I could ease the pain of those around me, if I could make their lives better, easier, I would feel so much better. Like you, K2, I feel so helpless and know there is nothing else I can do. My poor little heart is breaking.
Sorry for all the bad news, but It seems that that's all I have right now. Been crying all day. Hope everyone else is having a better day than me. HUGS!
I'll tell you, if you have your youth, your health and enough money not to have worry about anything, life is good. Otherwise it is just one lousy friggin thing after the next with only worse things on the horizen.
Why would a good and loving God allow suffering?
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Now K2 is missing. That's not good.
God, in my later years of working before I became disabled, I could barely live through my 40 hour weeks, never mind the 60 you're doing. You poor dear, you must be absolutely exhausted!
Lisa is so brave and strong, but I'm sure she must have some private moments where the reality sinks in and she must feel it. It's good that she is able to take part in planning her daughter's wedding. I'm sure that is helping her a lot.