ok.. now i'm either going to make your life a whole lot easier or a whole lot harder?
first of all.. let's play devils advocate here (and yeah, i used that terminology on purpose)
what you describe can easily be translated to a situation of (early-age) potential domestic/spousal abuse, even the (reluctance?) absence of any
parental input is worthy of mere consideration in all that.. hypnosis is not yet understood.. interestingly here, we can draw further parallels to
ritual abuse and so called false memory syndrome, etc but we don't need to get all sherlock holmes on that..
ok.. now the even better news
when i was very young.. i had a similar experience.. (one of many).. i remember clearly many details (of the very first event i can recall), i was
able to get another person involved (my dad) before anything got out of hand that i can recall?, these were persistent events, we sometimes call these
"night visitations" ..i can also have him (my dad) to this day,
reluctantly confirm all this and many other strange related instances, such
as a helicopter that was not a helicopter, and 'people' inside the house when there was noone inside the house (if this is making any sense) ...one
day i will probably make a thread much like you've done here..
(and other such nonsense)... (and like) you seem to be offering here, other people can 'sort of' confirm the 'weird' stuff going on.. so, i can
easily believe what you're saying..
there's a lot i really would like to add here but... just.... probably best not to? ..even right down to the supposed 'possession' of others, and
the obscure involvement of an otherwise innocuous object that 'transformed' ...very peculiar..
what i would say to you though, is simply this.. "you're not dead"
(i know you can dig that, because of the way you've taken time to
articulate your OP and so on..)
so just relax because there is nothing you can do to stop any of it and there is a reason a veterinarian sedates animals before working on them.. it
is an unpleasant experience.. the 'thing' doing it (the vet) thinks the ends justifies the means.. the vet only has a partial knowledge of
'healing' per se, (if that is indeed what the vet is doing).. ..and this is all getting a little existential but the vet did not create the system
the animal is part of.. it will be up to everyone to decide if these 'vets' are creators or created beings.
you probably don't really want to recall these things unless you want to
really deal with them.. you will end up posting on message boards,
telling people to read the bible
....read the bible
oh, and if it takes you "too long" to ever get to that whole bible mess.. just think about how i am posting this to you now.. there is no such thing
as "coincidence" ...just know that there is something above those 'animal vets' and it even knows what happens to each and every single mere
sparrow