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Originally posted by deaf fences hit
Can you give some examples of how intense these thoughts are? Reason why I have become interested in this post is that I have had some similar thoughts growing up aswell, though I never really acted them out. Those that did occur were very minor, though not normal, or atleast I don't think so. It also went towards those I loved, but these thoughts were always countered in dreams that would make me realise how much I care for these people. Strange, but related to your own? Maybe yes, maybe no... Let me know what you think. dfh out.
Originally posted by JoeyC
I guess when you try to consciously rid your mind of these evil thoughts plaguing your mind you unconsciously cannot stop thinking about it...its hard to explain but is this the way you feel? when i have a problem I meditate on it, wonder why i feel this way and deal with it- i make this sound easy but i agree it is quite difficult. but the next time those thoughts pop into your head just remember you have already dealt with it and it can easily be ignored.
Originally posted by Indigo_Child
I need some help here, because this is really driving me up the wall. This has happend to me since I was a child. I would get psychotic thoughts, of doing evil things, which seemed to have been induced in my myself. The more I would try to escape it, I would find the more I created it. The most odd thing about it, it would only happen with people I love. I would never get an evil thought about someone I disliked or was indifferent too.
I would get these episodes throughout my childhood and it was a horrible experience when it happend. Sometimes, the thought would not go for days. As I grew up, the episodes become more infrequent and less intense. However recently, in fact just 2 days ago, they came back, and I am ignoring it, meditating, praying, visualizing light etc - but it just won't go away!
Is this a normal phenomena, or am I really just a very evil person, and I am just decieving myself I'm not? Or is it simply because I have the lost the ability to love(I would not be surprised with the life I've lead) and when I show love, it's falseness manifests as evil thoughts? Whatever it is, I want out!
[edit on 17-10-2004 by Indigo_Child]
Originally posted by Indigo_Child
As I grew up, the episodes become more infrequent and less intense. However recently, in fact just 2 days ago, they came back, and I am ignoring it, meditating, praying, visualizing light etc - but it just won't go away!
Originally posted by PRThat is why if you ask mass murderers/rapists to define the nature of evil, they have a great deal of difficulty doing so because they have damaged or destroyed their "god spark" that enables them to discern the difference.
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Originally posted by Indigo_Child
I need some help here, because this is really driving me up the wall. This has happend to me since I was a child. I would get psychotic thoughts, of doing evil things, which seemed to have been induced in my myself. The more I would try to escape it, I would find the more I created it. The most odd thing about it, it would only happen with people I love. I would never get an evil thought about someone I disliked or was indifferent too.
I would get these episodes throughout my childhood and it was a horrible experience when it happend. Sometimes, the thought would not go for days. As I grew up, the episodes become more infrequent and less intense. However recently, in fact just 2 days ago, they came back, and I am ignoring it, meditating, praying, visualizing light etc - but it just won't go away!
Is this a normal phenomena, or am I really just a very evil person, and I am just decieving myself I'm not? Or is it simply because I have the lost the ability to love(I would not be surprised with the life I've lead) and when I show love, it's falseness manifests as evil thoughts? Whatever it is, I want out!
[edit on 17-10-2004 by Indigo_Child]
Originally posted by Indigo_Child
All problems you have, internal or external, are manifestations of your consciousness. There is only one way of dealing with them, and that is to go deep into your sub-conciousness.
Or is it simply because I have the lost the ability to love(I would not be surprised with the life I've lead)
Also i would meditate and pray if it becomes that bad and failing that sign yourself in somewhere with a padded cell where you cant hurt anyone. Especially your dog.
Originally posted by Indigo_ChildIt's comforting to know I'm not the only one, it restores my faith in my humanity.
I think that's some of it, yes, and that most of us choose to not act on it. We know it's wrong; we know that after the first action (hitting, stabbing, whatever) that we will not be able to continue and we will not be able to forgive ourselves.
I had this theory, that we all get these thoughts, and those with less will power and sense of right and wrong, are the ones that act on them.