posted on Oct, 11 2004 @ 03:13 PM
Hmmnn....Thx for the replies. I think the thing that bothers me the most in terms of the mental illness/strange experience thing is the way that a
majority of psychiatrists that I have seen, choose to invalidate my experience. I mean, if I am to think rationally (uck, I hate that word), then I
can see that the 2 can be mututally exclusive, but in my case possibly aren't. I sound like I'm invalidating my own experience now, but what I'm
really trying to say is that mentall illness may be partly responsible for the altered states of consciousness and sensitivity that loan me to this
type of experience, but yet that does NOT in itself make my experinces invalid and worthless.
I mean, I don't really want to use an old cliche, but is this not all fairly similar to the whole genius/madness debate. I think that there is a
very fine line between so-called genius and madness (I do not consider myself to be a genius BTW..well not all that often
), and that a
fine-line exists between psychosis and insight/mystical-experience/transcendental experince etc. However, while a lot of us manage to remain on the
um..more 'favourable?' side, a lot more of us can cross over between the 2. It's as if one lends you to the possibility of the other (I could go
'off on one' about dualities and paradoxes here, but I won't)...I think I know really, that I sometimes manage to find myself in
'alphabetti-spaghetti land' (as a friend once termed it), and it is NOT an enjoyable place. It's a very confusing place and really, fairly
terrifying at times for me. It's all about maintaining control, I think.
Still, psychiatrists need to learn to be able to seperate one from the other - It is difficult, I know - but I have met one or 2 that are slightly
more open to alternative experience without automatically throwing you into the psych-institute. I can't believe that psychiatry is STILL so
seemingly 'backwards' on this type of thing...hmmnnn...I mean, really, as long as I am not a danger to others, and I'm quite happy with my
experiences, surely there is no need to 'treat them'? If I became distressed, which I do at times, then fine, hand out the meds. I'm just tired of
IGNORANCE and the invalidation of experinces that are VERY real and VERY usual to me....haaaaaaah B-R-E-A-T-H-E!
eye34 - rant over!
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