Been all me, like u could say its been for eryone else, they just prob haven't ever thought of that being the reason ..no u aall have, u ppl, like
twitter ppl, are just more honest than most about vulnerability. Ok so here's my posit, and I should be thinking of things to ask bobby but I'm
really just, ugh I wanna get my piece out. So if we could liken the universe to unyielding power, I guess I can say that it is not loving or adequate
how we desire but does care about us in the sense that it did provide us w life. Tease. I hope I'm #ing wrong and can go back to saving the world,
but there's so many signs for me that this isn't the case. And maybe the end will come as the bible says tho, quicker than a wink. Who will be
happy if we make it past 2012, this girl. All I've ever wanted was to help to be wanted or rather had my skills utilized. But the universe I
answerdoesn't answer to me I answer to it, it stimulates me, but I have found it to be wanting, or rather lacking perfection. It has given me st
very close, I've been entertained and all, but its just not enough. As is, with all our advancements , we are still in shambles no closer to having
it together than I suspect its ever been. I would like to think if we go its the death of the universe but who knows its probably not entirely. He
is unyielding and eternal. And I think he knows not to let me down anymore, i almost flew to jamaica or booked a hotel and flight last night to kill
myself but it morphed into just wanting to go there then move to my moms condo in colo bc my apt here , well, its not ideal bc my love my kitten babe
might have flees #, and my job driving around all day long well, its gonna be an int summer in my high milage honda driving so much to dallas on itand
being in the heat all day, I'm not lookin forward,(lol I'm grumpy my airs broke..and I don't have good car air or as reliable a car as I'm used to
having. Oneee last analogy which btw etymology or relation is bringing back which I imagine means to oneself connoting we really just learn about
ourselves thru this experience, which would be that we are imperfect as is that universe. What a marriage eh, wink wink, as my bf is so great (as is
the universal spirit) at being so funny on twitter but isn't happy emotionally. He's the nicest, but has trouble communic and I love him but..
(I'm half his age btw, had to brag). Exactly what's wrong w the world too, we exploit it for our own gain and then bitch. I'm prob as cool a gurl
as they come, I'm sexy and everyone loves me or at least is deeply emo affected by my presence, but like I said, we are still left unsatisfied in the
end. So, I love you all whatever happens (of course ill always want to save the world) but I truly feel the sign that I'm getting is we re gonna get
cut off for our own sanity. Ain't over til the fat lady sings, or the cow jumped over the moon (bc this is me realizing my feelings I believe)..
(and I would add that I'm not that fat, but jesus mofo chris, I'm spent I don't care anymore, not now at least, so either it not the end and were
in for a paradigm shift which I got our back on, or life really is that delicate and statements like the proof is in the puddin are actlyjust
maddening in the end. Oh yes, and this dude used to work at nasa on godlike, I'm never on there I just stumbleed upon it like EVERYTHING else (well
,with a little curiousity)..and said he was fired but that they nasa said its the end and they've known for a while. Btw, comet elenin backwards is
9/11 which is the first day of jewish creation. Here we are still in disaster. F, f f f f. I wish me hard right now bc lifes hard
sincerest, Dar