posted on Jun, 17 2010 @ 07:45 PM
I grew up catholic and went to church off and on until my mid twenties. Even from a young age, I've always been skeptical of religion and the bible.
Too many contradictions and illogical explanations for almost anything. The "Just have faith" line worked on me for a quite a while, combined with
all the fear and guilt that's typical of Catholics.
Now I have absolutely no use for any religion. I "pray" in my own way to what I believe hears me. I basically believe we are all a part of what
makes "God". I've evolved from believing this life is a test to believing it's more for the experience. I don't believe there is any true right
or wrong either, your view changes with different perspectives, so there can't be in my mind. I don't believe God is a gray haired angry white man
eager to punish us for every little thing. I won't even mention my theory that aliens may have played a role as "Gods" long ago. So I'm
comfortable with everything, except one thing still bothers me.
There are evil or dark energies in this world. Those who have come across them know what I mean. I don't believe everyone that has claimed to feel
a demon or been possessed is crazy or creating it themselves. The best example I can give for this is from the movie "The exorcism of Emily Rose".
The ending really shook me because her point of wanting to "document" her terrible experience was to show that if evil of such magnitude can be
proven to exist, then in turn it proves God exists. Why does the bible and exorcisms seem to "work"? Would anything work coupled with the right
energy?
I've been struggling with this for years and it keeps me one foot in on religion.