I go through various emotions daily (please move mods if in the wrong place) because i'm human. Need no further explanation.
I just listened to Makes me Wonder by Maroon 5, the made the song for President Bush, Girls, and etc. lots of reasons actually!
I like the band personally, they showed me a side of life to girls I needed to know at the right time years ago.
Theres the video.
So, lately i've been feeling the inevitable, hopelessness feeling, you know where, everything you do turns to f and dust sooner or later. We've all
felt it i'm sure.
Instead of talking to my pill happy friends and family, I feel ats is more alternative, for a temporary feelings, (as i'm not obsessive
I just feel like everything in life is worthless and meaningless, it's good in ways but a complete bummer in others.
maybe i'ts because i'm atheist, and don't believe in a being that is watching me and judging my good deeds. I judge those personally. Those who
acknowledge them I care little of their opinions. Sad to say.
Every relationship I have will end, every pet I have will die, every accomplisment I have will be surpassed, everything I do is a stepping stone, or
worse for something else. It's ultra depressing to think about it.
I can say I just want to be happy and thats my goal in life, but thats what 99 percent of people want, what makes my life more special then those is
what I strive for, but it seems unless your born with it your SOL.
How do others deal with this, is there something motivating, I can see, or do I just have to wait this damn feelin through its course, because if you
know me, I feed off emotions of others, and supress my own feelings. Every now and then these sneak there ugly heads on me.
I'm a genius, (iq wise) and I work at subway, because i'm still waiting for a past mistake and sacrifice to come off my record. My life right now is
at its worst, but showing signs of improvement beyond belief! Although i'm curious, if I can't accomplish anything in the worst of time, can I
accomplish anything in the best of times.
Like say you blame your city for why your the way you are, if you can't be the shining star in your city, what makes you think you can be a supernova
in another city? Shouldn't you shine everywhere?
Just depressed and venting, f-k this thread if you will. LMAO. Haha. Just wondering how hopelessness catches up with people.
I'm still young and go off that, but dmn sooner or later, I'm going to have to do something big, (proactive mind you) to redeem myself, alot of self
put pressure I guess.
Looking for thoughts and inputs.