I kinda know what you mean...
the only difference being i noticed this only about today... oh and that i am not completely sure i can completely relate to the last few lines of
Actually was intrigued to do a thread myself.
VERY VERY SIMILAR.
Today my day went perfectly fine. Or so it seemed.
I went to the various sites i had to visit as usual. Spend some time to do some paperwork at office completed some customer requests and everything
seemed to flow fine despite the pressure.
But let me go back at the start of my day for a second. Last night i did some observations on stuff related to my father which was a bit
disappointing/frustrating to me. As i woke up in the morning i saw my father getting along with his usual habits when he informed me about something
we were having an eye on. For some reason i couldn't relate to the conversation and i wasn't getting the answers to the questions i posed. It
wasn't as important and i could get the info later in the evening when i would have more time to go over things. Instead i went bazarg and made a big
fuss out of things greatly insulting my father... something i deeply regretted the exact second after i opened my big mouth. I might have been right
about a few things but i never went into the trouble of calmly discussing it over at the proper time. Instead i just took a lot of anger out of me
without making any point or even sense... I apologized before leaving but the damage was donne...
In regret i spend the rest of the morning at work as described previously.
I was late in the office at early afternoon when i thought i ought to go by my parents and have lunch with them and ease my conscience and my father.
It seems i was too late and they were fast asleep in their afternoon siesta. So i ate alone and thought why not have a little nap myself before
heading back to office. So i did. I had the need for some peace and after all i had a dancing class with my other half between 10-11 at night and i
could do with some extra energy, since i was taking off in the classed.
I overslept and woke up at 19.00 in good shape, or so i thought.
I got dressed and headed off to my father so as to have a smoke before work, chit chat a bit and check that he was OK after this mornings incident. It
seemed that all is OK but something wouldn't allow me to rest my mind.
I came back to my office and was relatively if not very efficient. By 21.30 i had carried out quite some work, made a few arrangements and was happy
to go and meet my woman to go dancing.
Guess what. Although i was very conscious and receptive to everything and everybody i felt as having a distance and difficulty to relate... Pretty
weird. It has happened in the past but its not a daily thing. I was there but not completely there.
Anyhow we enter the class with some 14 other students and the two teachers. There were people dragging me one direction or another and i lost my lust
for dancing. I had already dropped out of 4 dances other times willingly while other times things just came this way.
I know i am an oversensitive person and i thought its just coincidence. Its a bad day in some certain ways and i shouldn't show others my
frustration. So i headed outside for a smoke. A little later my woman comes around i explain and she nodes to me. She got the picture with my
difficulties in relating to the newcomers in the dancing class, cheered me up and told me to relax because you could see in my face that things are
So... dancing was over and we headed for a stop by my parents to have a pizza, give them a couple of presents she had bought and have a relaxing glass
of wine. By now i was conscious that there was something weird going on with me. It was just one of these days...
The gathering went alright but i could tell that both me and my father were influenced by something other than my morning achievement...
I drove my woman back to house and said that i better go to my office and do some work since i am a mess and wouldn't fall asleep anyway.
So here i am writing those lines at 03:25 in the morning doing the same thing you suggested.
TAKE IT OUT ON WORK.
I will. Its just hard to express in words what you and me have in common. You have to live it in order to get the picture of what lies behind those
lines i just typed. Some will say i am crazy too while there are a lot that know what we mean.
I don't know if there is a conspiracy here, if i am oversensitive to some stimulants or whatever.... I thought of the moon phases myself and gave it
a good part of responsibility for my state just now...
Maybe its just the effect of the Moon. Maybe not. I just gave it a gaze outside my office's balcony and it stands right there at the exact same spot
as last night, only slightly fainter tonight.
Lets hope that tomorrow will be a better day for all without any genocides or bad incidents as you suggest.