posted on Apr, 5 2009 @ 01:02 AM
reply to post by Frankidealist35
First let me say that there is nothing wrong with you. We are all unique in different ways, and mysterious and inexplicable events happen to and
around us on a daily basis.
The memory is a very complicated thing to say the least. Its true nature and its operational functionality are largely mysteries to science. There
is just so much more to it that we are able to understand.
I myself don't remember almost anything from before I was 7 years old. I to this day forget way more about recent events than I can remember. But
for some reason I can remember the words to almost every song I ever heard. The few details from my childhood that sometimes come to mind are
indistinguishable from fantasies. Like many other people they contain a mix of truth and what I probably wished at the time to be true, but for the
most part it might as well have happened to another person.
The mind just like the body contains many fuses and self protection/preservation mechanisms. When severe traumatic events occur in our formative
years they often lead to the memory defaulting into "safety" mode in order to protect itself and the mind. The problem is that for the most part
these mechanisms, once switched on, are not easy to reverse. So what happens is that long past the triggering events themselves are long gone, the
mind still approaches life in that same mode.
I am speaking in semi-general terms of course. I obviously am not aware of your past and the specifics of your situation. The most important thing
in my opinion is the recognition and awareness that what is happening to you is natural and just the end result of a once needed self preservation
Once that is realized there are many options before you. For some therapy is beneficial for others it's meditation. I suggest exploring all
possible avenues and discover which one works best for you.
Remember that most of this stuff isn't really yours, it is just life suffering and junk that you've stored away for your own protection. As such
there's no need to be afraid of this process. Consider it an invitation to become familiar and at peace whith the person you truly are.
I am always here and available should you need to talk things out.
And thank you for having the courage to share your innermost feelings with us.
[edit on 5 Apr 2009 by schrodingers dog]