posted on Mar, 8 2009 @ 04:30 AM
I have been away from ATS for awhile and am back. I needed a break from it all. I felt conflicted with too many ideologies and had succumb to what the
Hopi call two-hearts as well as some form of sickness. I will get into some of the things I have been through as of late.
Prior to my absence from ATS I had been having restless sleeps/bouts of insomnia, horrible flank pain, thin stool, absurd upper and lower abdominal
spasms along with twisting knife pain. I also felt mentally bombarded by the way society was working, I deleted my Facebook (An MMORPG in which you
try to collect friends) and just had to take a break. I am now able to sleep again and feel generally good sleep-wise despite not being able to move
around that well. 2 weeks ago I was in the hospital for 2 days on mass amounts morphene, however problems persist physically. The doctors refuse to
give me a CT Scan stating that since I had 2 in 2008 it would only give me cancer.
I had another colonoscopy done as was suggested from a preliminary topic. I had one done over the summer and the most recent one this past Thursday.
The doctor said he could not find anything in my colon, he biopsied for something he called microscopic collitis or crohn's or something. I am to
call back for the results later this week. I am pretty sure what is going on is a direct result of my colon. I can no longer eat processed food
without throwing up. I have constant bouts of diarreha and a sore back constantly. The spasms I will note, begin only when laying down. The pain
radiates to the kidney's. I thought at first part of it may have to do with a kidney stone, I seem to have been mistaken.
What I am afraid of is that my doctors missed something. I know it is very unlikely but I was told that Jewish doctors by religious cree are not
suppose to heal gentiles. Now I know that sounds absurd but it is one of the most searched/result topics in Google for example. I mean if it says it
in the Talmud, then it says it, and as a gentile I should be informed. I am not anti-semetic really, I have family friends that are Jewish and are
some of the best people I know, despite being beat up daily by Jewish children growing up because of my race. I was even told by Jewish parents to
stay away from their children because they did not want "my kind" mixing with them.
At any rate, should I be concerned being a gentile who gets colonoscopies from devout jews? I know it is a problem with the colon because during
colonoscopy prep once the colon is entirely emptied all pain, spasms, symptoms in general go away. I've tried asking my adopted family who I live
with if it says this in Talmud but they are Pro-Zionist's and called me anti-semetic...I simply raised the question but apparently one cannot do that
in today's society when it comes to a minority.