posted on Oct, 4 2008 @ 08:39 PM
I already have people asking me about experience which you can view from my signature but the thing that is making me conflict is the topic im
speaking of in this thread.
Im beginning to wonder if im actually going insane lol as it is literally like I have my physical experiences and my spiritual experiences (only word
i can think of) and I am not a spiritual person in any way. I do not follow church etc.
My morals have always been as good as i can make (do to others what you would do to yourself) them but I keep sort of seeing dreams, vision or
thoughts as i try to put it as sanely as possible that just do not fit into me as a person if that makes sense.
Its also effecting my family life as I cant relate to others because of what i see ie pain to come and i feel im going to suffer extreme loss so by
cutting it off it wont happen as bad.
I am not saying that I am psychic as its different and hard to put into words not just hard but extremely hard. Its like I am dreaming of being a
different person or being in a different world.
I know that might sound insane but it doesnt seem that way to me and is really bothering me as I never got dreams like this until around a ago and the
reason im actually mentioning it is because its getting worse.
I ahve also worked in the field of science and have studied psychology so I understand that this is not a mental illness at least none documented and
I dont see myself as the first of an illness so im puzzled.
Im kinda opening my heart out here but I couldnt give a damn as me as a person is fine if that too makes sense.
this is the sort of comment I would have ripped to heck a few years back and i still want to now as i do not believe in this but that is the very
reason i am conflicted.
The reason I mention that it seems insane is due to my father telling me I am similar to my grandad who he claims is just like me with his ramblings
which make me wonder as ive never known my grandad due to my fathers influence but my grandfather was always digging deep into conspiracies, politics
and corruption. I wonder if I am onto anything or if im losing my sanity through everything ive been told now.
I dont feel like I am but given the facts i wonder lol
[edit on 4-10-2008 by XXXN3O]