posted on May, 22 2009 @ 11:28 PM
I will have to say, I know exactly where your coming from. It always feels like theres more you can do to look like that girl on the magazine. I grew
up with a sister who was always popular and beautiful, even when she wasnt wearing makeup. I always strived for what she had and was very envious of
her.
I buy stupid creams and cleaners. Stretchmark cream for the few stretchmarks on my stomache. Knowing these creams wont fade them completely yet still
finding myself using them everynight.
In a crowd I always feel like everyones looking at me and picking apart all my flaws.
I guess I had to learn that even the most beautiful woman, arent completely happy with how they look. Even the most beautiful woman pick there
flaws.
Its very hard to get over completely and its tough going day to day comparing yourself to other woman.
Wanting the dark tan. The perfect hair. The nice body. The pretty eyes. The full lips. It gets overwelming.
Ive gotten over alot of it. I had to let myself know this is going to be my body forever, this is me, am I going to go through life feeling crappy
about myself, or accept myself how I am and love myself no matter what.