I just feel like telling a story, since I don't really talk about love with my friends. Let me start by saying that I live in the Netherlands and
I'm 19 years old. My entire life I've been really shy, and that's one of the reasons why I never had a girlfriend. Normal friends (both male and
female) haven't been a problem though, because when people get to know me they seem to find me a really nice guy. It's just that my self-confidence
has never been high. That's also one of the reasons I played way to much videogames. (even played WoW eek!
In the past few years I've had a few girls that I really liked and to 2 of those I've asked if they wanted to be my gf, but both said no.
That did it, and on 31 december 2006 I promised myself to change. It really worked out, payed more attention to my hair and clothes (didn't really
care in my youth) and imo I really look better than in the past.
I stopped playing WoW... Also been on a youth vacation to Siofok, Hungary (nice lake!) and really enjoyed myself. In a few weeks I'll start a new job
at a restaurant and I've begun a new study (Earth & Economics) 2 weeks ago. Already been away 4 days with classmates, which was really really fun. It
pretty much involved walking through forests at night, drinking beer and making fun with eggs, milk, flower hehe, and jumping in a river after it.
Anyway, so my new life began like I promised myself. Barely had time to play videogames in the last 3 weeks, and to be honest I didn't really miss
A few weeks ago my sister (who is very popular with boys) even said I was starting to look very cool, and she expected me to have a gf soon
So know the stuff why I posted it here. There is a girl who's doing the same study. She's the type of girl I like and I noticed she looks a lot at
me (and me at her
) We didn't really talk much yet, but she keeps looking at me. Those 4 days we went away with my classmates it became even more
One moment I stepped on the dancefloor and walked to a few friend and I saw her staring. Ofcourse, I'm to shy..even with 2 liters of beer inside of
me. I hate myself, but can't help it
The problem is that I'm sure she is also the shy type...
What to do? Had to many bad experiences and broken hearts with girls to take the first step. Bit scared to fall in love again...
Although I know I've became less shy in the last year and I improved myself.
Ooh well, I don't know if you guys have any advice but just had to tell my story.