posted on Jul, 16 2006 @ 05:02 AM
Oh man, this brings back some memories.
I'll tell my little story. I once befriended this girl where I worked at. Just friends mind you. We knew each other quite a long time. Little by
little, I had fallen in love with her. She thought I was the greatest guy in the world. As a friend. She was always on my mind. But, not wanting to
ruin what we had, I never I never let on my feelings. I'm talking perhaps five years had passed by now. I knew all of her family, I had seen her
through her divorce, and she has a new fiance. He also works where we do, but does not say much to me, but does'nt like our friendship either.
Anyway, she has a kind of falling out with her fiance, and one night I decided I was going to once, and for all let her know how I feel. I know she
did'nt mean it the way it came out, but she did'nt take me seriously, and practically laughed, and told me she thought of me as family. I changed
the subject. But I must say, that part of me just about died that day. I was heartbroken. We had both been drinking, and that probably contributed to
the way it turned out, but I swore to never bring it up again. I continued to visit her on the weekends, she had since kind of made up with her
fiance, and he was there on numerous occasions. One day, he had found the old letters I had once written to her. They were'nt exactly love letters,
but my feelings clearly showed in them, nonetheless. He actually confronted me about the letters, thinking that they were recent. As he peactically
lived there at that time, he told me not to come back there. She no longer worked at the same place as mae by this time. On the following Monday, she
called me, and told me that everything would be okay and that I can still visit her. But I just could'nt. My heart was broken, and nothing I could do
to ease the emotional pain. She continued to call me though, until I changed my phone number. The part of this whole thing that really gets me, is
that she kept those letters after all of those years. I think that I approached her at an awkward time, and if I had done so sooner, everything would
have worked itself out. Eventually, she found out that he was cheating on her from day one. He was married when they first met, got divorced, and even
got a different girlfriend while all the while, still with her. She still marries this guy, after knowing all of that. It just got to be too much for
me, and I had to abandon our friendship altogether. Sometimes, I wonder if I was wrong for doing so, but other times I feel I had just cause. Either
way, I will never know.
I still think of her often, even to this day. I first met her 16 years ago.
moral of the story, if you devlop feelings for your opposite sex friend, better to do let it be known early on, or not at all. If it does'nt pan out,
move on. But trying to retain a friendship, where there are one-sided feelings as in my story, it would be very difficult, if at all possible to
retain the friendship after the cat was out of the bag. Would take a lot of willpower to overcome deep feelings that have no chance of
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