posted on Nov, 27 2005 @ 10:36 PM
Well here I am,
First off, I am not a skeptic!
Alright, all my life I've wanted to experience something just to prove to me that something beyond everyday life exists. Just for me, not to prove to
the whole world, just so I could know like so many other people claim to. Now I'm a bit older, I've spent my life following the rules and I've done
well, but that moment never came.
I was sure I'd find it, my uncle was always like a father to me. Coincidentally he is a 31st degree Freemason, (hes a pretty big honcho at the lodge)
he must know something I'm after. The more of his books I read and the more he told me, the more it became apparent that all the masons did were
memorize very old books. He claims that nothing supernatural ever goes on, its about brotherhood and tradition.
I'd like to believe in God and an afterlife, things like that, but I don't and it makes me really feel really #ty.
I've heard people say that if you just go out and take it or ask for it whatever it is will show up. I'm not sure what I'm looking for, but do you
guys have any advice on where I should start looking? I'm not a skeptic, I want to believe, but what could I do?
I'm completely amoral about this, whether its good or evil, I just want something to happen so I can finally know.
Edit: alright, I'm not asking for a tutorial or anything, I just want to see some people with experiences like this point me in the right
[edit on 27-11-2005 by PanzerFaust0]