a reply to:
zosimov
Hey, Zos, I hope you don't mind a late reply. I had to think about how to put into words what I've learned and come to peace with -- emotionally,
spiritually, and mentally. And this may just be my experience, but I'm happy to share if it helps.
Everyone grieves differently, and for each person we grieve, we grieve a little differently depending on the circumstances and our relationship with
that person, and our current understanding of death.
Because we're not just coming to terms with the death of a loved one. We're also coming to terms with death itself. And to a greater or lesser extent,
our own mortality. I think you are already aware of this from your own perspective.
In the initial phase of grief, all the negative emotions and thoughts are front and center. But life is for the living and as we let ourselves live
again, we not only let ourselves heal, we find comfort in our memories. Especially when something reminds us of them, and the gifts -- the blessings
-- they gave us in life.
It Happened recently for my daughter and I when she came upon some birds painted on glass tiles in a gate... totally something my mother would do. And
in that moment we saw the tiles, we didn't just
think of her, we
felt her right there with us. We
felt the
same sense of love, happiness, fun, and lightheartedness that we always felt in her company.
We talked about how she encouraged and nurtured my love of nature, which helped me encourage and nurture my daughter's love of nature. My mom and I
used to share nature "porn." Now my daughter and I share nature porn. We often think of my mom when we do. It's a tradition we cherish 🥰
And there are those times of wonder and awe -- too few and far between -- when we receive a sign that they are with us in spirit. Sometimes in big
dramatic ways. Other times in quiet and subtle ways. But we know it... we
feel it with our proverbial sixth sense of the intangible.
And I believe that my mom knows too, and that helps her spirit's growth and evolution in the beyond. Well,
our beyond, but her present... her
"here and now".
The same for everyone remembered and cherished and appreciated by the living.
And as painful as the process is, as we make peace with the deaths of our loved ones, it informs and expands our understanding of death itself and
helps us accept death as a natural and necessary part of life and living.
Perhaps more specifically that death is a natural and necessary season in the cycle of life.
Okay. I'm done rambling now. I hope there's something of value in there for you.
Keep seeking and reflecting, Zos. You'll find your answers.
Big big hugs, my friend.
🍻