Breaking the ice.

So I've been an ATS enthusiast for many years. As far as the media goes, I frequently check the surface (mainstream media), for no other reason than to see what the information cartels are trying to shove down our throats. I'm 40 years old and have lived my whole life watching the internet go from dial up modems using AOL cds with free hours on them to visit chatrooms and watch videos, to this...100% of every hour of every day high speed instant access in your pocket basically every where in the world. From "9/11 was an inside job" to transvestites wearing lingerie twerking on stage at school assembly, and all those years in between the internet has never let me down. I learned almost everything I know from the internet, and even if I learned it offline, chances are I've fact checked it or looked up pro tips after the fact. I believe in God more deeply having seen and read things I never would have had access to without the world wide web. Things like Electron Microscopy, which I never would even I glimpse of in real life, are broadcast in thousands of ways by thousands of people and indexed by Google for my phone, computer, tablet, watch, TV, Playstation... wherever I am there's a way. I've read more of the Bible online than on paper. I downloaded a copy of the anarchists cookbook in line 1998. The New York Times, Wall Street Journal, and Chicago Tribune are all delivered, as if on bulletin boards, to my eyes everyday as they are printed and every article stored in a library of infinite shelves for review on demand. I can DIY pretty much anything on earth, minus things like nuclear power and nano particles, and for what I can't craft myself, 3D Printing fills in the gaps. I've seen the stars in all their glory glistening and pulsing and shooting and exploding through telescopes that cost someone else millions of dollars. I can see the faces and hear the voices of every official in my government, and contact any one of them directly. I've seen every state of the human condition. From the moment that one in the millions of sperm breaches the egg, to the atrocities of war and murder perpetrated by truly psychopathic humans against one another. I learned how to refine and improve my memory to store as many things as I can offline, and learned how to learn better with platforms like YouTube airing free seminars and conventions. I've saved pets I loved with at home veterinary care. And there is even parts of the internet I created and shared...with photos and videos and posts I've uploaded over the past 25 years across thousands upon thousands of websites and forums. I am a modern human and fully acclimated myself to this technological age along with it. I know I'm grateful. I know it. But there is something I know it has taken from me. I suffer from severe depression at times and have, since childhood, periodically had breakdowns and suicide attempts and have hurt myself dozens of times because I just couldn't get my state of mind out of the pits of hell it sometimes gets stuck in. Sometimes I drown in the tsunami of all the awful things happening to the people places and things on this planet. Every time it was offered I would take the red pill. 100 out of 100 times. But there's a sad human being inside me that reminds me constantly just how of of alignment we are with every other form of life we know about. I'll be just putting on my clothes for work and get struck by the mental image of our elected officials making payments to Epstein for access to his child rape retreat. The moment I wake up I know at any moment my thoughts could slip and fall and land on the images of the Texas coastal refining complexes and their smokestacks which release hundreds of millions of cubic feet of lethal chemical waste into the air. For every pound of love I have for the internet there is an ounce of murderous hate. As I make this post, I'm on a smoke break from the worst, lowest paying job I've ever had frying chicken at a popeyes in a backwoods southern town. I feel as a human I'm operating at less than 1% of my potential. So without very much self esteem and very few resources I'm going to try to get some semblance of intellectual experience in my life here. I love all of you and am so grateful to be able to engage. I hope over time maybe to find like minded individuals to talk to. As it sits I have 1 friend... my wife... and I think she secretly hates me.

a reply to: Somedumbum
Paragraphs are your friend friend.

Welcome the the other side of the rabbit hole
I know it's fun lurking and all but interacting with the members here is much better

a reply to: Somedumbum

But there's a sad human being inside me that reminds me constantly just how of of alignment we are

Some one is now marketing fingernail polish that looks like you have dipped your fingers in a bowl of Velveeta cheese.
www.foodandwine.com...

KFC is now promoting a new eating utensil the call a ''finger-spork'' which you stick your finger into and use it to eat your KFC with. Both of those speak to me of how out of alignment we are. Both are promoted in a belief that consumers will make those products profitable.
global.kfc.com...

And oh to repeat Themaskedbeast, if you use paragraphs, it demonstrates that you want to discuss an not just post.

a reply to: Somedumbum
Welcome to ATS!

Low paying jobs are just stepping stones man...

At 40, no worries, this job is temp until a better one comes along.

a reply to: Somedumbum


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Thanks, i know it is but to me it's like being in the cold with no coat... this will pass but it sure is uncomfortable for the time being.
reply to: Darkblade71

Cheers!
a reply to: Themaskedbeast

And I'll take your paragraph advice sir thank you.
a reply to: Themaskedbeast