Smoking....
I'm done with it. I made a poor decision over 5 years ago now against all better judgement and common sense that's cost me #ing stupid amounts of
money over that time, decreased my health and shortened my life.
I started smoking, tobacco to be clear.
The reasons are stupid and unimportant, suffice to say, I did and it became habitual. I won't lie, I enjoy the act of smoking, I enjoy the taste of
tobacco, but....I'm done with it.
The reason though....my nephew, he's almost a year old.
Not gonna brag, but, the little dude loves me. I taught him how to throw things and make splashes in water and how to open his tube of snacks, to his
mom's disapproval, making a mess of his play pen, and how to yell 'Yeeeeah' really loudly..
Anyway...I was visiting my sister the other day, we were outside, smoking...and I seen my nephew inside staring through the window, eyes glued to my
smoke watching me.
It hit me, he might be young, but he's at that age where he absorbs and copies everything and he seems to look up to me. I never want to be
responsible for him thinking smoking is something good because I did it.
When I was young, a lot of the people i looked up to smoked and I let this justify my poor decision. I don't want my nephew doing the same thing.
I'm going to go the salt nic lung douching route. I managed to quit for a few months before with it, but at the time I was working at a place where
everyone I worked with smoked while working, making it not so easy. This time, I'm in a different situation with less temptation constantly around me
so I'm hoping I can keep at it and not just get addicted to the vape. Though, I hate all the sweet candy flavours so that helps.
Also, if anyone has any advice on any flavours that aren't sweet, candy like, taste like baked goods or food, that'd be awesome.
Not sure why I made a thread on this. I don't normally make threads like this but, I dunno, just needed to say something I guess.
ETA:
While I can still edit this. Thanks ATS for all the kind words and support. You guys really are great. This place has always been one of those few
places out there, no matter what I'm doing in life or what's happening on the world, ATS is there.
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