posted on Dec, 15 2020 @ 04:56 PM
As far as I remember, I only had one lucid dream. It wasn't long ago, several months only. I haven't read a lot about them, just the general
properties. It happens often that I remember glimpse of dreams in the morning and even when there's massive flaws in events, it is not enough for me
to realize I'm dreaming.
But one night, I managed to realize I was dreaming. Nothing special in the process, the context a childhood's location. The object that made me aware
of the dream was a tower in the background (there wasn't any tower near this place when I lived there).
The first thing I decided to do was to test the dream. I had read about capabilities such as flying at will, so I wanted to check if I could do these
at will impossibilities. Conveniently, there was a car parked at the side of a road, so I decided to see if I could pass my hand through it.
And it worked! I was surprised and excited by this.
Oh, there's much more I wanted to test and experience, since it was my first. Yet, my "freedom" didn't last long. Soon after I've tested my
ability to pass through "objects", I saw, at distance, some kind of entity (I don't remember what it looked like, except its head was an
energy ball). At that instant, it appeared before me and it increased gravitational force above me, to the point I was barely able to stay on my
It took every bits of will I could manage to gather in order to actually overcome the pressure and stand up. Something surprised me though, there
wasn't any hostility emanating both from me and the entity. It seems as it barely wanted to expel me from my dream (wake me up), or
my movement. Despite the lack of hostility, or even fear, from me, I still went and attacked it.
This part is really blurry, and there isn't much I can say on the "fight" (if I can call it as such), but I remember that after the fight, I was
walking up a hill, and when I reached the top, I woke up.
Now, I've used the term entity, but I doubt it is accurate. To be honest, I suspect it was a part of my "self". As to the reason behind its
actions, I have two theories;
1. A test, it's kind of simplistic, but the lack of hostility and its dubious attempts make me think it could be some kind of test, but a test for
what? I'm clueless, so I'm not fond of this theory.
2. I somewhat blocked myself from accessing certain parts of me via dreams. By that, I'm basically referring to the idea that the brain can sometime
"erase" memories from consciousness if they are susceptible to pose problems.
While I'm not entirely dismissing it, I doubt it was an "external entity" such as tricksters that feed on dreams. I mean, if it were, and it wanted
to expel me so that it can continue its business, there's probably better ways to wake up a lucid dreamer than putting pressure on him. I'm thinking
more in the line of using fear as a more efficient tactic.
I'm really interested in the aspect that I wasn't in "full control" while lucid dreaming. I wasn't consciously controlling the pressure
put upon me, and as I've said above, it took all my might to actually stand up again.
I'm not really trying to demystifying the dream, nor do I really seek to know what happened, or if the entity was me or not me. If anything,
I'm just seeking discussion on dreams, or if anyone else have experienced something similar.