Sometimes it's hard to go home when you've deviated far from the path that you set out on.
I came to ATS looking for answers related to a personal experience I was never able to reconcile. I was a metaphysical seeker, paranormal hunter, a
I am still all these things. I am a fighter of demons, both internal and external.
For reasons I won't get into, I was forced to take a step back from my vantage and see a wider picture.
I came here originally and put a lot of thought and effort into my threads back in the day. They weren't all 'page-turners' exactly, but I'm proud of
some of the unique content I've brought to ATS. If anything, I've always tried to bring something of a little different flavor with each new OP.
To be blunt, the site has seen many changes in tone in the last 10 years, and so have I.
In 2019 I realized I was running full speed in a wrong direction. I didn't like where my life was going, and I noticed my posting behavior became
something I wasn't proud of anymore. No longer was I doing the research, thought exercises, and material gathering needed to produce quality threads/
Instead, I found all I had to offer was the occasional dumb joke, snippy insult, or emotional outburst.
I took several months away from the site to be a reader again. I read as a guest, ignoring the need for usernames and avatars. I absorbed the
information in the posts, instead of focusing on the reputation behind the poster or their particular slant. I tell you it was very refreshing!
My admiration and respect for the contributors had been greatly renewed, my memory of why I originally joined ATS had been restored, and I felt the
increasing urge to participate and learn once again, even if from the sidelines.
While I don't think I'll soon be returning to my original thread style, I will continue to show my support for ATS as a reader. As much as I'd like to
present some of the more detailed and in-depth threads like I used to, I continuously find the time in the day running shorter, my focus...more
fleeting, and my drowsiness is ever-present
But I am here, I am home again. It's great to be back in my community. I am reading your posts and threads daily. Have a few stars and flags on me,
See. you. in. the. threads!
edit on 5-6-2020 by NarcolepticBuddha because: (no reason given)