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4 walls [DE2020]. Non-writer

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posted on Apr, 30 2020 @ 02:18 AM
The woman stared blankly at his palm claiming to read palms. Were a kid of around 12 at the time and she looked up and said either I can't or I won't after giving his sister detailed readings that were surprisingly accurate. The kid thought nothing of it. This kid grew up alone but with friends never able to understand his true self, but rather a clown putting on a show. Locked away in most of the elementary school in a resource class and later becoming ill in high school to be forced out by illness ar 9th grade. By this time the kid knew he was different in some way, but was different in some way and never found his place. In his late teens/the early 20s he hung with a crowd but never showed himself because he knew not who he was.

Somewhere in his mid 20's, he went to get his fortune told but was turned away the teller showing alarm on her face and exclaiming she could not see through his walls and they were so hot. By this time he had married the first girl to come along, which showed an interest in him only to find no joy in marriage. The girl ileaves to later murdered her boyfriend. He married a second time and found an uncanny ability to suggest things that the girl would fulfill physically but. not mentally. Often he disappeared into anger driven rage at the world, himself, her, or the kids. he often visited a therapist in hopes to figure it all out. He even decided to try being gay but it wasn't fulfilling nor was straight. He began drinking heavily in isolation searching for meaning but always staring at a blank page.

Today he sleeps very little going to bed at 4ish am drunk and waking with dawns light

These are my demons
edit on 30-4-2020 by tinktinktink because: (no reason given)

edit on Thu Apr 30 2020 by DontTreadOnMe because: (no reason given)

posted on Apr, 30 2020 @ 02:27 AM
a reply to: tinktinktink

Nicely done
Pretty bleak but where there's life there's hope, eh?

posted on Apr, 30 2020 @ 02:34 AM
a reply to: SprocketUK

Thank you ill to that. It isn't always all that bad just experiencing the grey or gray never undrerstood which it was.

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