posted on Mar, 19 2020 @ 06:20 AM
Hello. Thank you for providing this space. It's important for people to have a sounding board during times like this to be sure. I don't think I have
much to say here other than a bunch of crazy rambling but here goes.
How safe and secure can anyone really be when everything crumbles? Sooner or later it becomes each man/woman to him/herself. As much as I don't want
to think that way, those thought creep into my mind often. I'd like to think I'd be the exception, I'd like to think that many people in my life would
be that exception.
But all I see right now are people going out and living their lives, selfishly hoarding. Our state officials are urging us to stay in but without
being told to shelter in place that'll never happen. Stubborn, entitled Americans and I put myself in that group as well.
I feel like I've been mentally preparing for things like this my entire life, I don't know why but I've always been a worst case scenario person. I'm
the person who looks for the emergency exits, I'm the person who counts the number of seats between my seat and the emergency exit door on the plane.
I'm the person who knows what to do if my car should be submerged in water, I know I'm not a minority here but I'm always waiting for that global
disaster hoping it never comes but almost eagerly waiting for it. I don't want loss of life but I guess I appreciate the message it sends if that
makes any sense.
No, I don't think this is a world ending event but I do think, or at least I hope, the majority can learn a lesson here. I hardly talk current events
and I never talk about the environment and I barely speak about religion simply because it's always met with sarcasm but my gut says all of this is a
wake up call maybe? My hope is that people can see that the earth is trying to tell us something, that nature can knock us off of our pedestals, maybe
God is sending a small message? A warning shot? I don't know and I'm not doing a very good job of explaining it. I read about the waters in Venice,
how they became clear and how fish and even dolphins came back. If that's not a message I don't know what is!
I have always wished that people appreciated our world and our lives a little more, maybe now they will. That's my hope. My fear is that life will
never be the same. People are scared, angry, bitter on one side and on the other side they are in denial. When this is all over life is going to be
very different and I don't want to be that person who acted like an ass during the crisis.
Part of me wants to thank you for giving us a non-judgemental sounding board. The other part of me wants to say "suck it up"!
After 9/11 there was a great community feel. Everything and everyone slowed down and started paying attention, started caring for each other. Words
were kinder, actions were more gentle, people were more patient, it was good. The whole time I kept saying "this will wear off and in several years
we'll be right back where we started, selfish and blind to everything except for our own agenda.
Why does it always take a disaster to open peoples eyes?
Last, and I never speak about this. When I was a child maybe about 5 years old I was on a road trip with my parents. While sitting at a toll booth a
homeless came rushing up to the car, he peered into the window of the back seat where I was sitting and he literally lost his mind. He started
yelling; "this is a child of God, this child is special and knows things, this child is here for a reason" my parents, being parents, closed the
windows and locked the doors, they thought he was a crazy person. Some years later while visiting my aunt who was dying from cancer she told me that I
was a child of God and that I was here for a reason". I've never forgotten those words and I guess I've lived my life waiting for that reason to come
to light. It still hasn't, but I am still looking. I'll never stop looking.