I used to drink every night, couldn't sleep unless I was drunk, but got up every morning took some headache pills, then functioned normally until
evening when it became wine o'clock. This had been my pattern for years, holding down well paid jobs, but in the back of my mind secretly knowing I
was alcohol dependent.
Well nearly 2 months ago my mother died suddenly, had lost my dad a few years previously, but this loss totally broke me. I went on a complete binge,
drinking from morning to night, by a couple of weeks ago I was drinking maybe a bottle of wine in the pub in the day, then 1 litre of vodka and
another bottle of wine at night - total madness, such a huge amount I even stopped eating anything more than maybe a couple of pieces of toast.
So I contacted my doctor, wanted to stop, and was referred to the junkie/alcho team at the local health service and they offered me counselling,
telling me to keep a diary of my booze intake and cutting down gradually.
I knew straight away there was nothing any counsellor could tell me I didn't already know, and cutting down slowly it would take 30 years before I'd
be down to a glass of wine a night 😂 So I decided to just stop.
3 days in and I'm curled up in a ball on the floor, sweating, shaking violently, cramps, vomiting, then started seeing and hearing things. It was
awful, I couldn't take it so phoned a friend asking her to bring me some alcohol because I couldn't physically make it to the store.
She turned up then refused to give it to me, forced me into her car and took me to the hospital.
I got admitted immediately, hooked up to 3 different drips, some drug injected into my shoulder muscle, multiple pills every couple of hours, and to
be honest I lost a few days in my mind.
After a week I was fully detoxed and they released me. I actually feel alive again and free from the clutches of alcohol, it's amazing!!!
I was invited to a pub breakfast yesterday, local event going on, by midday everyone around me was already pretty drunk, but I still had a fantastic
fun time even just drinking my OJ and lemonade 😂
That was a test for me, and I didn't crave alcohol in the slightest, in fact I now actually fear it! 😱
Rehab detox is the best thing that has happened to me this year, all my taxes over the years are worth it if only for that!
I checked locally and the cheapest private 7 day rehab residential clinic I could find was £2000 which no way I could afford as I'd spent my savings
on alcohol, and although my independent annuity income is enough not to have to work, I couldn't save up the two grand while still drinking, like a
Anyway, thanks to all the NHS staff who cared for me, I've been out one week now and am completely dry, got a bit of an addiction with fizzy pop right
now but the staff said that is because I'm replacing the sugar I was getting from alcohol so suggested eating high fructose fruits like apples,
grapes, and watermelon instead, which I'm now doing.
I said to a friend yesterday that alcohol to me now is like ending a crazy, passionate, destructive relationship but with an ex who I may bump into
every few months and have mind blowing sex with for the night but we can never get back together again 😂
Any alcoholic stories welcome, just sharing mine because each time I do it reminds me how lucky I am ❤️🙌
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