posted on Dec, 13 2019 @ 10:04 AM
originally posted by: DictionaryOfExcuses
Fin's continues absence is noted. Fin: hope you're ok.
Hello Sir and hello to everyone else too. I am ok now.
This week was demonic. No alcohol or other substances involved.
Let me explain my absence. Monday, i was feeling alright and me and my best friend decided to meet each other at his place, have a couple of beers but
not too much, maybe watch a movie. It was a really rainy evening so i stayed for the night. It is always ok, he has keys to my apartment and i have
keys to his, so if something strange happens we can come anytime without prior notice.
So then the night between monday and tuesday, i woke up with horrifying pain in my lower back, kidneys and legs. I have absolutely no tolerance for
physical pain, because i practically never have it. Mental pain i can handle, they are there every day and they are not real, they are just my mind
playing tricks on me.
I tried and tried and tried to find a position for me that the pain is not there. So, so tired. After trying, in an exhausting fever, i found out that
sitting on a hard surface (floor) with both knees bent, it is almost tolerable. But everytime i fell asleep in that position, i fell from sitting
position to the floor and woke up in killing pain. So desperate. So bad. Cried my eyes out. Couldn't eat anything on tuesday. Or wednesday. Or
thursday. Then i thought that i better get my antidepressants and leave my friends place and dragged myself to my apartment, it took an hour of
walking, normally it takes half an hour. Today (friday) my friend said that come over if you don't want to be alone.
On my way here, i bought spinach soup, cheese cubes, huge yoghurt and a chocolate bar and i am alright now. He went to sleep and i spent some time to
read all the Shed posts i had missed and to post this.
Life goes on. It didn't feel like that earlier, but it does.
No wukkers
Fin