The Shed 23

a reply to: LookingForABetterLife

Haha! Ok.

Living on the farm while 'True Love' is away. :-

Okay, Doin the house painting, check. Feeding the cannibals, check. Keepin the kitchen clean, check. Keeping the bathroom clean, check. Washing the clothes and linen, check. Working on the upstairs decking, check. Moppin, vacuuming, dusting, check. Washing 'true love's car' check. (Water from 2nd tank).

Dunny? ....Nup....Looks like it's a bit browned off! Chortle. Errk. I tend to gag when washin the brown offa the porcelain. Here's the big tough ex military man and cop. Seen some real mean crap but give me the dunny brush and I get geared up from head to heel with masks, goggles, overalls, gloves, spray. Seems a bit different while 'truey' is away. I geared up today, started gagging as soon as I held that 'dunny' brush. Got it figured though. I have to be careful with the nature septic thing. So I gathered an armful of 'Rosemary' and will be tossing it in with my next dump. Such is life on a farm.

Post script. I have a big 'Rosemary' bush so I'm tweeking together a brush. Love Rosemary and will attack the dunny upon dawn tomorrow mit coffee and smoke.

Kind regards,

Bally

originally posted by: Finspiracy

originally posted by: Night Star
a reply to: Finspiracy

Coffee and wine? That's an interesting combo. You need a little breakfast to go with that.

Breakfast? Yes i would if i could.

I don't eat, these days. Sometimes i force myself to do it. Been losing weight all the time. I used to buy 24 packs of beer from the grocery store but i can't do it anymore, because i can't carry them home. My muscles have turned into dust.

Hey Fin...

Listen well and listen closely alright...

I know you have some issues, we all do my friend.

I say this as a 33 year old guy that went from a 1 bedroom flat, to an 8 bedroom mansion/big house with two sports cars, football park garden and games room that I cherished... but was not happy with. Then life came calling, lost my cousin, mother, friend, survived a horriblly bitter divorce and then some etc.
Yet kept falling all the way down, down, until I lost it all... to return to an even worse 1 bedroom shieethole.
I sit in that same shieethole right now, with my amazing little cat on my shoulder that has stood by me through it all still purring as I type with the electricity machine beeping for credit again (14p left )... I keep going as I know that crap doesnt matter other than my wee kitty and the connections I still have that work both ways now with trust and loyalty.

Get Up! Up off your backside mate! Never give into whatever caused it, even if self inflicted or not! The darkness is part of who you are and will always be, do not run from it... embrace it and be at one with yourself!

(This little song and motivational stuff is meant in a totally non-gay way too, but id give you a man hug any day mate haha )

a reply to: XXXN3O

I can't reply the way i want, the way that it would be enough.

Your post kind of left me speechless. And crying, although Seal sang not to cry. I don't care if you are living in a super mansion and have staff to do everything for you, or if you are a bum living under the bridge. You are a man with a caring heart, that is what i care about, and you will always have that heart, it makes no difference where you are or how you live.

Man hug sounds great. I love hugs! Hugs are small moments in time when 2 people are truly there for each other!

And after reading your post, watching the videos, for a short moment, i looked into the future like the future may have something positive to offer to me. That doesn't happen often and that doesn't happen easily. You made it happen, friend.

a reply to: bally001

You've been a busy Hubby.

Would love to see a pic of the rosemary bush. I love herbs!

How's the new Grandbaby?

a reply to: XXXN3O

What an amazing post filled with motivation and love. Love the video clip and Seal song! Honored to have your friendship XXX.

a reply to: Finspiracy

XXX made an impact. I'm glad he touched you and rekindled your hope Fin.

The Shed brings people together in the most wonderful ways. I love how deep and caring the people are here. We have all been called to this sacred place of love and learning, of caring and sharing, of laughter and joy and comfort. Even in the silence, we know someone is reading along and that perhaps something resonates with them and they too are moved by the magic and wonders of the Shed and its denizens.

Why I've Been So Quiet Lately

Words bring back memories.

Memories bring back pains.

Pains must be shared to turn them back into memories

and then to only words.

It's hard to have a day without thoughts of my wife of 16 years in them and of things I would love to share with her.
I was thinking how nice it was of both of my sisters to attend her funeral and be there with me for a few days.

These things make me cry.

I read some stories I would have loved share with my wife such as...
The theme cruised now available in this post 9/11 world such as with NKOTB, her favorite band or even the Star Trek cruise.

These things make me cry.

I was thinking how nice it was for Delta Airlines to come to the aid of a British couple who's wedding plans were ruined but the Thomas Cook collapse. It was so nice of them to help them (plus 14 guest) fly to Las Vegas and stay at one of the casino/hotels for their wedding. I was thinking how nice if was for Rod Stuart to sing at their wedding.

These things make me cry.

I was watching one of the older Star Trek movies the other day. One with some of the original crew. I was thinking how nice it would be to live in the Star Trek universe away from this nonsense we call life.

These things make me cry.

Just today I was reading about the filming locations in Georgia for The Walking Dead and what the area residence had to deal with. My late step-daughter lived there and shared some of this with me.

These things are making me cry.




Viva my weirdo friends

a reply to: LookingForABetterLife

I am glad you can re-live some wonderful memories and that they are still real enough to stir emotions in you.

What a wonderful momentary escape.

I hope your current reality is heading for more positive times ...

😎

a reply to: LookingForABetterLife

I am touched by your post Sweetie. The memories will always be there for you to cherish. The sadness will be a part of you, but Janey would only want what is best for you. It's ok to cry, to feel, to express your thoughts and feelings.

There was a time period in my life where I was at my darkest and didn't believe that anything could change to make me want to get up and keep moving ahead. So much has changed since then, many beautiful moments, times of clarity and contentment. There are still things that can bring me down or fill me with fear, but...

I have my family and friends, treasure the good that I find, the inspiration and whatever brings joy. Every day is a new day and we can begin again.

a reply to: Timely

How are you mate? How is Linda? How's the weather? How is everything?

Anyone heard from JusstMike???????

originally posted by: Timely
a reply to: LookingForABetterLife

I am glad you can re-live some wonderful memories and that they are still real enough to stir emotions in you.

What a wonderful momentary escape.

I hope your current reality is heading for more positive times ...

😎

Unfortunately I relive the past as my present is very unpleasant and I have no clue as to when, if at all, it will get any better.

All I can do for now is wait. Waiting means numbing my mind playing computer games, eating comfort food, and searching and searching for something worthwhile to watch in streaming series in a world full of mindless programs.

a reply to: Night Star

As I have mentioned, all I can do for now is wait. Been waiting for five years now for something good to come out of losing too many family members.

Everything I try comes back in slaps me in my face like it is saying "you don't really think we can help you get anything out of your doctor appointments and such?"

I need to be able to leave behind my current life and start over someplace else but without money it's not happening.

a reply to: Night Star

Night and Pesky rose at the first sign of daylight. The golden sun peeked above the treetops bringing beauty and light. There was a slow and gentle awakening of birds that sang their songs and spread their wings greeting the day. The winged creatures were ready for flight, in search of a breakfast of insects, seeds and berries. Squirrels scurried along branches and down the thick bark. They dug holes in the ground in preparation of storing their winter reserve of acorns.

The companions quietly descended the wooden steps of the quaint little house to the main level in search of the seer. They followed the scent of eggs and bacon and found the elderly woman smiling as she placed the table settings around a table handcrafted of fallen branches, covered with small stones for the top. "Good morning magical creatures. Please, join me and we can continue the discussion from last night."

"You had asked me how your friends got caught in the real world and how they could return here." Night nodded.
In between bites of food and sipping coffee, the woman continued. "You are fearful little Elf of that world and rightly so, but I think in order to get them back, you must go there yourself."

Pesky was elated. "I always wanted to visit there, but never knew how. This is so very exciting! We can meet other humans and their strange animals and see the tech-in-ology."
The Elf corrected her. "Technology."
"Yes, that! And...and we can see the buildings that reach to the sky and..."
Night sighed deeply. "What? You said we were going on a journey, an adventure. I just didn't know it would be so fascinating."
"Be careful what you wish for Pesky. Do not throw caution to the wind."

"So...does that mean we're going?" asked Pesky. Night's eyes met the seers. "What good would we do there? It is all strange and unfamiliar. We know next to nothing about that world, certainly not enough to survive or make a difference to our friends." Pesky frowned. "Does that mean we're NOT going?"
"Child, you have your magic. Energy works there as it does here, yield it, but only if absolutely necessary.

They ate the remainder of their meal in silence and deep thought.

a reply to: LookingForABetterLife

I hear you. Sometimes numbing our minds give a little reprieve, but our lives are still there unchanged. Every time you feel helpless and as though nothing will ever change...take that thought and say to yourself "STOP!" Try replacing it with the possibility of something good happening, a slight change that could lead to bigger ones. There is no healing completely from a huge loss. You are forever changed, but you can hold on to whatever good is left in the world and there really are good things and hope and change.

Somewhere down the line you may get on welfare or disability. Keep all your appointments and you will have a trail of all your Doctor's visits and the things that may prohibit your being able to hold a job. Get a different lawyer who will work for free or free unless you win your case and they get a percentage. There is an answer out there somewhere. Someone else may help you better. I don't know exactly what to advise.

a reply to: Night Star

G'day !

Linda is in Sydney with a carer visiting her Mum, Sister and Nieces for two nights staying in a city apartment.

I am enjoying some perfect Spring weather and peace and quiet.
Might go for a walk on the beach and contemplate what's for dinner ...

a reply to: LookingForABetterLife

I have lost many family members and friends through the years. I reflect on how many memories are stored in my head from so many years of living. I remember after Mom died, I sat in her kitchen and went through all her things. She was 92 and I went through a ton of photos and cards and other things. I saw her favorite clothing hanging in the closet, knowing she would never wear them again. Holiday decorations would never be used again. Her favorite chair, like Dad's would be empty.

As I went through the pictures of her and my Dad, my Aunts and Uncles and her friends who had all gone before her, I thought...now she will be reunited with them, especially Dad. I was thankful that she had lived such a long and happy life. I was thankful that I was able to help my Parents so that they could remain at home and not have to face a nursing home.

Though I have been disabled for years and it can be painful, I am thankful that I could be home and could at least help them in their last years. They helped to shape who I am today with all their love, compassion, wisdom, humor and joy. I know losing a spouse is different. I don't know how I would be able to cope. I do know that my family and friends will be there in whatever capacity that they can to hold me up and push me forward. We are here to hold you up Blue. I know it's not the same as being there in person, but this what we have and I am grateful that we have this, the shed and our friends here. They are the candles in the dark of empty, lonely moments.

I bet if you made a thread, there would be a lot of people who could relate to you and they wouldn't feel so all alone. Maybe they could even help in some way. Hugs dear friend!

a reply to: Timely

Wonderful to hear.

Ah, a walk on the beach before dinner. Can I come along?

Good morning!

I'm hungry! I'm hungry! Finally! I have been waiting for this for a while!

In just a couple of hours, a nearby grocery store will open it's doors. I need something filled with calories, carbohydrates and fat. I think i will fine tune a frozen pizza. Chop some garlic on that and a thick layer of extra cheese. I will also check out special offers for vegetables, and have a salad while the pizza is in the oven.

a reply to: Finspiracy

Sounds good to me. Good morning Fin!